oh the verge
i've had 2 nervous breakdowns in the last 6 days. it's a combination of all these portfolio reviews, working 32 hours a week, doing my last project, and the fact that while i'm having the most hectic time ever, this is my last few days with buddy before he goes to medic school and i don't talk to him anymore.
add to that little time to take care of myself and therefore low self esteem and you've got some serious stress. people at work today said i looked upset even though i wasnt really upset. i think i've just buried myself in this huge hole of overacheivement and, being the perfectionist that i am, i can't give up until everything is right.
i really think that after these few weeks, after my last project is due, i'm going to revert to being that fun, sassy girl i once was before i started this whole design school process. i really need to learn to take one day at a time and remember that nothing is life or death. i know i expect way too much out of myself, but i can't seem to help it. ah, fuck me.
that was a good vent. thanks.
add to that little time to take care of myself and therefore low self esteem and you've got some serious stress. people at work today said i looked upset even though i wasnt really upset. i think i've just buried myself in this huge hole of overacheivement and, being the perfectionist that i am, i can't give up until everything is right.
i really think that after these few weeks, after my last project is due, i'm going to revert to being that fun, sassy girl i once was before i started this whole design school process. i really need to learn to take one day at a time and remember that nothing is life or death. i know i expect way too much out of myself, but i can't seem to help it. ah, fuck me.
that was a good vent. thanks.