Pairing: Ryo/Uchi
Warnings: Boy sex and bad language
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Ryo has secrets and Uchi needs to "talk"
Notes: This was my
mini_ryo fic for
yuumei_nata. I didn't realise until now that I hadn't gotten round to posting it here. So, um. Here it is! Enjoy!
When Uchi messages Ryo asking if he can come over that evening as they need to talk, Ryo panics. He can't think of anything in particular that they would need to talk about, unless Uchi had found out Ryo's secret. And Ryo really, really hoped it wasn't that.
He quickly fires an e-mail back telling Uchi what time he'd be home, and to bring take out, and spends the rest of the day trying not to freak out. While also attempting to be professional and do his job. Which he's probably failing at if the looks Maru are giving him are anything to go by.
Filming ends a little early so Ryo gets back in time to have a shower before Uchi shows up. He's just finishing up when Uchi walks through the door, grinning like he owns the place.
“I gave you the key for emergencies”, Ryo grumbles as he rushes to put some clothes on.
“I didn't want to hang around and let the food get cold”, Uchi retorts, as he raids Ryo's kitchen for plates.
Ryo decides that food is more important that scoring points - having realised just how hungry he is - and wisely keeps his mouth shut. Uchi has gotten take out from the place down the road that Ryo absolutely loves, but rarely visits because their food is really pricey. Whatever it is Uchi wants to talk about, it seems like he's trying to butter Ryo up so it's not likely to be about Ryo's big secret.
Ryo breathes a sigh of relief and starts eating. They eat in a comfortable silence and Ryo likes how they can just hang out without the need to make small talk. It's one of the things he loves about being friends with Uchi.
It's only after they've eaten and cleared away that Uchi starts to looks uncomfortable and Ryo starts to wonder once again what all this is about. Uchi grabs two beers from Ryo's fridge and heads towards the living room.
Ryo follows and sits quietly on his chair, waiting while Uchi quite obviously works up the nerve to say whatever it is he has to say.
“We've been friends for so long now that I thought it was only fair for you to be the first one to hear this”, Uchi says in a rush, hands gripping the cloth of his jeans so tight that his knuckles turn white.
Ryo blinks to himself. Whatever this is about, it must be serious. He hasn't seen Uchi looking like this since, well, a few years back.
Uchi has stopped talking and is staring down at his legs with a look of intense concentration. He takes a deep breath, and then another. He takes a third one before unclenching his hands from his knee and looking up, straight into Ryo's eyes.
“I'm gay.”
Ryo's world stops.
And then all of a sudden it starts again. The sounds of the traffic outside come flooding in but Ryo can barely hear it over the silence roaring in his ears. The world has turned on it's head because Uchi - his Uchi - can't possibly have just said what Ryo heard him say can he? This must be some kind of cruel joke. Uchi has found out Ryo's secret after all, and is playing some horribly mean-spirited joke.
Uchi is staring at Ryo with a look on his face that Ryo has never seen before. It looks like fear, and when he sees it, all thoughts of this being a joke fly out of his head.
“OK”, he says.
He clears his throat and takes a sip of his beer.
“OK”, he says again. “When did you figure it out?”
Uchi's eyes widen in shock, and he sags in relief. It's only then that Ryo realises he'd been bracing himself. That Uchi had been expecting Ryo to react badly.
“Wow, you're taking this better than expected”, Uchi comments, confirming Ryo's opinion.
Ryo laughs and that seems to ease the tension that had built up between the two of them. Uchi explains how he's always known but had been trying to prove himself wrong for years. How he was sick of lying to himself, and to everyone around him and had wanted Ryo to be the first to know.
“I'm honoured”, Ryo replies.
“Fuck off”, Uchi laughs at him.
Ryo grins back and asks the question that he really doesn't want to know the answer to.
“So, why now? I mean, what brought all this on? Have you met someone?” he asks, ignoring the way his stomach churns at the thought. Uchi confided in him before anyone else, the least Ryo can do is be a good friend in return.
Uchi is squirming in embarrassment.
“Um, no”, he says. “No one special. I just thought it was time to accept who I am.”
“You're lying.”
Uchi is looking very uncomfortable right now. More so than when he first walked in. Ryo doesn't know why he's pushing it. Especially since he doesn't want to know the answer, but he continues.
“What aren't you telling me?”
“OK, well, there is this guy...”
Ryo's stomach flip-flops again.
“...But there's nothing going on. He doesn't know how I feel about him, and nothing is going to happen so...”
“How do you know nothing will happen if you haven't told him how you feel?”
Uchi is looking down at his knees again and biting his bottom lip.
“Nothing will happen because he likes girls”
“You don't know that. He might be hiding like you were.”
Ryo has no idea why he's pushing this. Uchi looks upset, and Ryo doesn't feel too great either. But something inside him will just not let this go.
“You should tell him.”
“And make him uncomfortable for no reason? He likes girls and I do know that for a fact. So just leave it alone.”
“How can you possibly know that for a fact? Have you been inside his head?”
“You're an insufferable ass, you know that Nishikido? I came here hoping to talk to a friend, not to get lectured on a subject that you know absolutely nothing about!” Uchi yells.
“I just don't see why you think you know this guy so well that you know he couldn't possibly be interested in you” Ryo yells back.
“Because it's you, you fucking idiot!” Uchi screams, and then shrinks back as he realises what he's just said, hands covering his mouth in horror.
For the second time in ten minutes Ryo doubts his ears.
“What?”, he asks dumbly.
Uchi closes his eyes and starts shaking. Ryo knows Uchi well enough to know when he's about to cry so he moves to sit by Uchi in order to hug him, but Uchi flinches away when Ryo comes near.
Uchi takes a deep breath.
“It's you. I'm in love with you. Have been for a while actually”, he offers a weak smile in Ryo's general direction, all the while avoiding eye contact.
“I realised that it wasn't going to go away, and I wasn't going to be able to get over you while dating girls so thought it was probably time to be honest with myself and admit that I'm gay.”
“Uchi...”
“As I said before, I know you're straight Ryo-chan. I wasn't planning on confessing to you tonight.”
“Uchi...”
“In fact, I wasn't planning on confessing to you at all. I know you don't feel that way about me, can't feel that way about me. I don't expect you to return my feelings. I just want to remain friends. I'm sorry if....”
“UCHI!” Ryo shouted in a desperate attempt to interrupt Uchi's monologue and get his attention.
“What?”
“You talk too much” Ryo complains as he all but throws himself on top of Uchi and attaches his lips to Uchi's.
The angle is all wrong and it's rather awkward, but it is the best kiss of Ryo's life. Uchi responds immediately and it's hot wet perfection that Ryo never wants to end. At least until they have to surface for air.
“Wha...?”, Uchi asks eloquently from were he is sprawled out on the sofa.
Ryo is half-leaning, half-crouching over him and he smiles as he repositions himself so that he's sitting on top of Uchi, with his knees either side of his waist. He doesn't bother to answer Uchi's bewildered half-question, just waits until he has his breath back before leaning back in for another kiss.
If possible this one is even better than the last. The better angle means that Ryo has his hands free, which he can use to do things like grip Uchi's hair. Ryo feels Uchi's hands on his ass and he groans his approval into Uchi's mouth.
Uchi breaks the kiss and dodges Ryo's mouth when he tries for round three.
“Wait. You like girls” he asks, confusion written all over his face.
“Yes”, Ryo responds. “And you're the biggest girl I know.”
He laughs and nearly falls off the sofa when Uchi narrows his eyes and hits him.
“Don't play with me!”, Uchi is saying, his eyes full of hurt and anger.
“I'm sorry. I'm not playing with you, honest”, Ryo is immediately contrite.
He leans back and climbs off of Uchi and Uchi sits back up. Ryo thinks it's slightly ironic that he spent all day freaking out that Uchi knew his secret, and now Ryo is just going to tell him it outright.
“Yes I like girls”, he is explaining to Uchi. “But I like you too. I've been in love with you for ages and when you said you wanted to talk tonight, I thought you'd figured it out. I was terrified. But it turns out you had a secret of your own.”
Ryo looks at Uchi and smiles. Uchi just looks confused.
“So, what? You're bisexual?”
“I guess. I don't know. I like girls. I love you. That's all I know”
“That's good enough for me”, Uchi grins as he pulls Ryo towards him again.
Their hands roam all over each others bodies and Ryo thinks Uchi must be distantly related to an octopus as he has hands everywhere but then his hands work their way inside Ryo's sweatpants and he stops thinking at all.
“Oh god, Hiro”, he moans as Uchi squeezes him, and then groans as Uchi's hands disappear and push him backwards.
“Bed. Now”, Uchi growls, and Ryo thinks that Uchi is a genius.
They manage to make it the six foot distance without any mishap, but then they have to stop for a while as Ryo's door is shut and neither of them are willing to stop groping the other for long enough to open it. That is until Uchi grinds his hips into Ryo's and he thinks he'll die if they wait any longer.
They fall through the door and onto the bed, hands running over each other’s bodies and lips firmly attached. Ryo rolls them over so that he's on top. Uchi promptly rolls them back again. Ryo mentally shrugs to himself and tugs on Uchi's shirt, so Uchi sits up to pull it off.
Ryo uses his position lying on the bed to his advantage and starts to undo Uchi's jeans. He reaches in and grabs Uchi's cock, but doesn't do anything.
“Ryo~”, Uchi whines, and Ryo knows he's got it bad when he finds it endearing.
“What?” he asks innocently. “I can't reach from down here.”
Uchi rolls his eyes but climbs off of Ryo and lies down, allowing Ryo to roll on top of him. Ryo smiles and leans over Uchi, kissing him in slow contrast to the way he is sliding his hand up and down Uchi's cock.
Uchi whines again and works his hand back into Ryo's pants, gripping his cock and echoing his movements. Ryo moans and thrusts into the funnel of Uchi's hands, his own hand gripping Uchi tighter.
In the back of Ryo's mind he knew that if he wanted this to last he was going to have to stop, but he just couldn't make himself. It felt to good, too perfect. He'd been waiting for years for this, never expecting that Uchi would feel the same way, and he just couldn't bring himself to stop.
Uchi was panting little breaths into Ryo's mouth, no longer kissing so much as gasping into each other. He threw his head back and gasped Ryo's name and Ryo nearly came at the sight alone.
He managed to tear his hands away from Uchi and was pulling his clothes off while Uchi was looking at him in confusion.
“Jeans” he said to Uchi, as he grabbed something from the bedside drawer.
Uchi pulled his clothes the rest of the way off and a second later Ryo was straddling him, kissing him and grabbing for one of his hands.
Uchi looked confused for a second, and then his eyes widened in shock as Ryo coated his fingers in lube and positioned them between his legs.
“Shut up”, muttered Ryo, looking embarrassed and avoiding eye contact.
“I didn't say anything”, Uchi retorted as his index finger disappeared inside Ryo.
Ryo closed his eyes against the burn. It felt completely different to when he did it to himself. He held Uchi's wrist and slowly moved against it, fucking himself on Uchi's finger.
Uchi started moving his hand in counterpoint and Ryo let go in order to balance better. Uchi added another finger and crooked them, and Ryo cried out.
They rocked like that for a few minutes until Ryo had the presence of mind to grab the condom from where he's put it on the bed, and roll it onto Uchi. He added more lube and then positioned himself awkwardly over Uchi, before slowly sliding down.
Uchi's hands came up to hold on to Ryo's hips, and his head was thrown right back. The sight of Uchi's mouth hanging open and his throat glistening with sweat, combined with the feeling of Uchi's cock filling him up had Ryo having to squeeze his eyes shut tight and think of something unpleasant in order to not come right there and then. He knew he wasn't going to last, but by the looks of him neither was Uchi.
When Uchi was all the way in, Ryo lifted himself up on his legs slightly and slid back down onto Uchi's cock. Pleasure ripped through him and he did it again.
“Fuck Ryo, you're so tight”, Uchi spat out through gritted teeth.
Ryo wanted to say something in reply, but his brain was otherwise occupied so he just ground down particularly hard against Uchi, making him swear again.
Uchi's knees came up to brace himself against the bed and he started to thrust up, meeting Ryo on the way down, his hands pulling on Ryo's hips for extra leverage. Ryo let Uchi take control and dictate the pace. He was so close he could feel himself on the edge.
Uchi was babbling incoherently, but Ryo wasn't listening. He couldn't concentrate on anything right now. The building could have been on fire and he wouldn't have noticed.
One of Uchi's hands removed their death-grip from Ryo's hips and grabbed his hand from where it was clutching desperately at the bed sheets. He placed Ryo's hand onto his cock and Ryo realised that Uchi was on the edge of coming as well.
He gripped himself and moved his hips back onto Uchi's cock, and forward into his own hand. It only took two thrusts before his orgasm hit, crying out as Uchi hit him just right from inside and he came all over his hand and Uchi's stomach.
His orgasm set off a chain reaction as Uchi bit back a scream from Ryo tightening around him, and managing to thrust only once more before his own orgasm hit.
They stayed in position for a few second, both desperately trying to get their breath back. Ryo was the first to move, sliding off of Uchi and to the side to lie next to him. Uchi slid the condom off and tied it before throwing it in the bin next to Ryo's bed.
Uchi lay back down and made a squawk of surprise when Ryo cuddled up next to him.
“Thanks Hiro”, he said smiling.
Uchi smiled back and threw his arm over Ryo, earning him a squawk of surprise in return.
“Just so you know, you're totally the girl in this relationship”, Ryo mumbled sleepily into Uchi's arm.
“Really? I think the actions of the last 10 minutes say otherwise”, Uchi teased.
“Shut up”
Uchi just laughed in response and closed his eyes. He was tired and they could argue about this in the morning. Which they would do. Their relationship hasn't really changed after all. Just that now they got to have hot sex when they argued. Which was all the time.
This hadn't been how he had planned things going when he'd decided to come over and out himself to Ryo. This was much, much better.
Oh well, Uchi thinks to himself as he drifts off to sleep. I guess some secrets just aren't meant to be kept.