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guess i'm feeling kind of disappointed in the whole college process we've all gone through this year. yea, i've known basically where i'll be going for the next 4 years of my life since junior year. but it's so hard to see my friends whom i know are overqualified being rejected and wait-listed. i know we'll never know why certain people get into schools while others don't, but it's just frustrating. another thing that's frustrating is that i haven't gotten any scholarships yet. and what sucks the most is that for one of them, they actually met me. so instead of the whole 'oh they just rejected your resume' shpeel. nope, they actually did reject me. true, i we have a bajillion dollars in savings. but i have a single parent... one income. ok whatever. i guess i'm just one kid with one parent. but still, my dad doesn't want to waste away his retirement so i can go to meesly school. jeez, it's just the rest of my life. stupid colleges. it's like i knew i could've tried harder in school, i could've pushed myself, done more... but bottom line, i had fun. i know i had an amazing time, and there's nothing i truly regret. it just all kinda sucks. like mckenzie said, we're getting older and i know we don't want to admit it. hey, i'll admit it. every time i think about going away to college, i just want to cry. yea, i'm excited to be getting away, but i just want to leave high school and its antics and its seemingly purposeless days. but how many of these people will we ever see again? i'm so scared that we're all going to change in college and become people that we'd never imagine. that scares me. it scares me that i'm going to be alone out there in the huge, wide world for once. and i hate that. therefore, i'm terrified. while i want this year to end, i secretly wish the summer could go on for an eternity. blah blah blah. growing up basically sucks.