Life sucks right now
Ok, so i don't want to sound suicidal... cuz i'm really not, i swear. It's just that I feel like such shit now that chris and I aren't together. He basically blames the whole thing on me, and even though I know that it wasn't just me, I feel so horrible. And the worst thing is that i hate him for making me feel this way. I even told him that i hate him now. No, actually the worst thing is that I just lost my best friend. During this past year he was the only one that i felt I could rely on 100% of the time. now that's all gone and I dont know what to do. I seriously don't know how to handle this. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry... actually i did that during mass/study today, and no one noticed. How sad is that?