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[stonedimmaculat]

i lost my mind a long time ago
slowly , but thoroughly
now i am just realizing how terrifying it is to function on an empty head
bouncing back and forth
up and down....yes and no.
i also lost the ability to verbalize my thoughts
and im reduced to pussying out and scribbling in journals paper and electronic
then closing up afterwards.
the only way i can organize my thoughts is through regurgitating them out into empty space
i am such a mess. a very stubborn mess
the sticky kind that stains even itself
and spews poison at the sweepers and scrubbers