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so, I realized something while taking a bath.
I left my house friday afternoon angry at my mom. I left Greg's today angry at him. I think I make myself angry at the two people I can count on to talk to who will actually listen to me. I push them away when I need them the most. When I was in the bath I thought... I need someone else to make me happy for just a little bit. But I don't have anyone. I could call Meggan, but she only talks about Brianna. I could call Alisha, but I feel uncomfortable talking to her now that she's so close to her real sisters. I could talk to my sister, but she'd tell my mom everything. Then I thought, I need Lola. But that's the wrong reason for having her.
I left my house friday afternoon angry at my mom. I left Greg's today angry at him. I think I make myself angry at the two people I can count on to talk to who will actually listen to me. I push them away when I need them the most. When I was in the bath I thought... I need someone else to make me happy for just a little bit. But I don't have anyone. I could call Meggan, but she only talks about Brianna. I could call Alisha, but I feel uncomfortable talking to her now that she's so close to her real sisters. I could talk to my sister, but she'd tell my mom everything. Then I thought, I need Lola. But that's the wrong reason for having her.