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RP: The British National Pastime

Mar 17, 2007 18:41

Date: 17 March 2005
Characters: Katie Bell, Cedric Diggory
Location: St. James' Park, Exeter, then dinner
Status: Private (albeit in a public place)
Summary: Cedric & Katie go to a football game, rather than a pub, for St. Patrick's Day.
Completion: Complete

( The British National Pastime )

katie bell, cedric diggory, march 2005, place: exeter

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shh_cedric March 19 2007, 04:16:24 UTC

"Moving ..." He sighed. "Honestly? Yeah, I've considered it, but I think it would hurt Hermione's feelings, make her feel even worse. It was a generous offer to let me say here, and I moved in before anything happened. When we talked, Hermione was very insistent about wanting to stay friends, and I agreed -- do agree. That's why I make a point of seeing her sometimes at the shop.

"But when I said it might take a little before I was ready to see them -- as a them, not as individuals -- I could tell she didn't entirely understand why, if it were in public, and maybe was a bit hurt, or put out. I'm not sure she got it, or why I left Ron's party when I saw her there with Roger. She's much more logical than me. And it wasn't that they were doing anything, it was just ... " He shook his head, hoping Katie understood what he was getting at because he wasn't having much luck hanging words on it ( ... )

shh_katie March 19 2007, 04:50:23 UTC

"You're talking in circles to try and make sense of things, not explain them to me exactly," Katie told him frankly, propping herself up on her elbows, adding with a smile, "To be honest, I probably don't need to be here for it. It makes sense in a convoluted way - just saying the same thing a million different ways. I can't speak for Hermione's logic, but you're much more logical than you think Cedric. You need it all to make sense, and you talk around things until you get them in your mind ( ... )

shh_cedric March 19 2007, 05:43:17 UTC

He laughed when she told him he was talking in circles and rubbed his palm over the crown of his head. "Yeah, that's ... how I think. I've got to verbalize it." He shot her a smile. "If I hear it, aloud, that's somehow different than hearing it in my head. Dunno why."

He smiled at her observation that she did listen to him. "I know you do. But I also ... sometimes I think there are people who do like the competition side of it. There's got to be some challenge, something on the horizon, some new conquest. Maybe it's a male thing, but I know men like that. Maybe it's evolutionary but it missed me ( ... )

shh_katie March 19 2007, 06:07:39 UTC

Katie sat up, sitting cross-legged, while Cedric rambled on. She could say again what she had said a million times before, and what he said often in different ways - Hermione wasn't right for him, he wasn't right for her. And yes, that was something she could still be objective on. But hearing that repeated ad nauseum wasn't going to change anything. Instead she was more struck by other comments Cedric had made, repeating something he had said before but she'd never really thought much of.

"Hermione as replacement for Gwen or not," she told Cedric, "I know this is a novel concept - but stop thinking in terms of what worked, or even didn't, with Gwen. This is going to sound incredibly hurtful, but think about it - the two of you didn't work out. If it wasn't coming here, wouldn't there have been something else back in Toronto that would have ended things anyway? Don't judge relationships by that standard, it's never going to work if you do. Even the 'right' similarities with what you had with Gwen - each woman is unique, don't ( ... )

shh_cedric March 19 2007, 06:27:58 UTC

He blinked at her while she talked, articulating something he'd not really considered. Her face was earnest, forceful, and it struck him. He felt a bit like a felled ox.

Had he been doing that? Well, yes. Yes, he supposed he had. He blinked.

Katie was standing, and half apologizing, but he shook his head and stood too. "No, no -- you're right. I reckon I'm ... I just ... I want to know what happened. What I did wrong. Why do I keep screwing it all up?" And he suddenly felt very, very close to sobbing ... which would not do at all. He'd been trying to intellectualize everything but she'd managed to rip away the convenient rationale, exposing what was raw and red underneath it. He felt like a failure, and he kept thinking if he could just understand what had gone wrong by figuring out what had gone right, he'd do better the next time. But he was only setting himself up to fail again ( ... )

shh_katie March 19 2007, 06:44:28 UTC

Katie had a sudden urge to withdraw her hand and smack him , but it was hardly what he needed. Shaking her head, she replied softly, "Cedric, you didn't to anything wrong, or screw anything up. It's the same thing we say every time - it wasn't meant to be. Even if you said one wrong thing, or didn't quite do something you should have, if something that small ended it - it was doomed from the start. Cheery outlook I know," she continued with a half smile, "but really? The post-mortem now, it doesn't help. It's just making you berate yourself for imaginary transgressions or what not ( ... )

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