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So last night i went riding. rode sum new horse that was wicked slow, oh well. had to be wip-happy.
Then i went to the mall and met up with everyone. Saw ben. Saw dan, chilled with him most of the night till effing Lindzy and Amanda came and were like "oo come on dan". That pissed me off. Billy was with this girl i'm friends with, but i don't know her name. That made me sad. Maybe purple's right, i shouldn't ever get my hopes up. But i don't like guys my age, they're so fucking ugly, all of them. So immature too, cause guys mature at a slower rate than girls.
Every man needs to get a little sleep
We all need sanctuary for the trouble on the street
Workin' hard and makin money
But id rather be dreaming underneth the shady tree.
Everytime i have sumthing for someone, they do something totally jackass, or find someone better. I hate being a side-order. I hate always being there when they want me. I hate never saying no.
Tonight im going to the hospital for the sleep study.Woo-hoo, electrodes in my hair, blood pressure things on my finger, oxygen up my nose.
"Well i'd do anything to get a little rest,
I think at night me would be better than this" <3Shortbus
I'm not gunna be able to sleep. Fuck it.
I find myself alone more and more these days. Ashley's awlays with alyse, alyse is madd at me half the time, and calia sure as hell doesn't like me. I'm thinking tessa really doesn't like me. I hate the way people mis-understand me. I dont get mad at people unless i want to kill them. I just get dissapointed, depressed, alone. Anger is a wasted emotion, its pointless. Fruitless. A vanity.
Fuck you anger. Fuck your hate. Fuck your girls and your worlds. Love to the music, to life.
Then i went to the mall and met up with everyone. Saw ben. Saw dan, chilled with him most of the night till effing Lindzy and Amanda came and were like "oo come on dan". That pissed me off. Billy was with this girl i'm friends with, but i don't know her name. That made me sad. Maybe purple's right, i shouldn't ever get my hopes up. But i don't like guys my age, they're so fucking ugly, all of them. So immature too, cause guys mature at a slower rate than girls.
Every man needs to get a little sleep
We all need sanctuary for the trouble on the street
Workin' hard and makin money
But id rather be dreaming underneth the shady tree.
Everytime i have sumthing for someone, they do something totally jackass, or find someone better. I hate being a side-order. I hate always being there when they want me. I hate never saying no.
Tonight im going to the hospital for the sleep study.Woo-hoo, electrodes in my hair, blood pressure things on my finger, oxygen up my nose.
"Well i'd do anything to get a little rest,
I think at night me would be better than this" <3Shortbus
I'm not gunna be able to sleep. Fuck it.
I find myself alone more and more these days. Ashley's awlays with alyse, alyse is madd at me half the time, and calia sure as hell doesn't like me. I'm thinking tessa really doesn't like me. I hate the way people mis-understand me. I dont get mad at people unless i want to kill them. I just get dissapointed, depressed, alone. Anger is a wasted emotion, its pointless. Fruitless. A vanity.
Fuck you anger. Fuck your hate. Fuck your girls and your worlds. Love to the music, to life.