so many fun and exciting things
ok so where do i start?
Saturday - yea yea i went to Tommy Cooks.. but this time i had a good reason i swear!! It was my friends birthday so i had to go. Nevermind the fact that this friend happened to be Riyads brother's girlfriend, that did nothing to sway my decision *cough* to go and have a good time. So at first i wasnt gonna go cause i knew riyad and his girlfriend were gonna be there, and honestly did i really wanna see them?? i juss didnt want to open anything that needed to stay closed.. u kno what i mean? but then on the other hand, this could have been a good thing for me to conform that, yes i am over him. so in the end, at 11:30pm i decided i would go. Well that was an eventful night thats for sure. Yes i saw him and his new.. (well shes not that new anymore) girlfriend. I've never seen them together before and honestly when i saw them it didnt really do anything for me. I mean i went there and i was me, u know me, always having a good time once music is playing. I had nothing to prove to anyone. So i did my thaaang, danced, partied, but the funniest thing was everytime i looked over at them they were fighting. hee hee oops. well the thing i dont understand is why would she be mad that i was there? she kept giving me dirty looks all night and as nice as i may be, i will give you looks right back. so needless to say she got it far worse than she was giving it. but like i was saying, why was she mad that i was there, i mean for one thing i didnt say anything to riyad or her, and he is with her and not me (well that would be the way i would look at it if i saw my bf's ex), if anything i should have been the one who was mad.
I just wanted to see them together, i wanted to see if they were anything like we were, i wanted to see for myself the way he looks at her. and i saw it, and thats all i wanted. I had my lil cry after the night was done, but this time it was different. It wasnt like i missed him or it wasnt like i wanted him back, but i think it was more of a happy cry. I saw him and i felt like i didnt even know who he was. i think i cried that night because for once since this whole thing happend i got what i needed to be satisfied. I prayed before i went there and i got everything answered. so this is it, ive said my final goodbye to all my feelings for him and for once in 5 months i finally feel like me.
so anyways yesterday way quite the eventful day. I got a new addition to my body! hee hee. my new tit piercing, so exciting! im still not sure why exactly i did it, but its fun. the way i see it is, hey - its not against my religion or the law and im young and i can take it out, so why not!? im really trying to take good care of it cause i wouldnt want it to get infected so this morning i was quite excited to clean it with my sea salt and spectro jel. who would have thought?!
so i have my first exam on sunday and i should really be studying, but im so far out of school mode i dont think i can go back until september. this is great. finally im happy with my life. finally im being me. im leaving for florida in a week and because i still have so much to do before that day comes it still hasnt hit me. i have to dye my hair again, thats gonna be exciting!
Im so happy today, i love the weather, i feel like going for a walk and singing!