i feel the need
i just feel the need to express myself in some way or another... Music was my main outlet but seems as though i don't get to anymore cause of stupid shit. I feel like I'm up to my eyes in anxiety. feel like i might actually have someting to say most times, but when i attempt to - nothing comes out. feel like something under constant pressure with no release vavle... I feel like i'm the most loved yet frequently mis-understood person. I still feel alone when i'm surounded. I can't just be, i need to analyze every little thing. I'm never satisfied with myself and feel constantly disapointed. And at every possible moment i question myself.
i'm happy sort of... i feel better than i used to but i'm stuck on a "what could have been" trip, which is depressing... someone who never should have left has come back and fucked me up - again. but this time its all in my head.
more to come. stay tuned...
i'm happy sort of... i feel better than i used to but i'm stuck on a "what could have been" trip, which is depressing... someone who never should have left has come back and fucked me up - again. but this time its all in my head.
more to come. stay tuned...