Comments | stixobutta: tired

stixobutta

tired

Jan 15, 2007 22:22

day off today... didn't matter though cause i still woke up at the same time i always do. i don't even need an alarm clock anymore, that sucks. I'm programed. I got up, i was excited about the day. i felt like i had so much to acomplish. i felt fucking fantastic for a change. last few weeks have been odd i guess.. i felt like a hypocondriac. ( Read more... )

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soslo January 16 2007, 13:51:14 UTC

everyone is alone adam. thats the whole point. even if you fill up physical space with a warm body (granted, in your case the warm body will probably have an intellectual mind and a kind soul as well) youll still be alone. especially if you havent learned how to love being alone. and especially if that warm soul, is still alone in her heart. you are still young. and if you are ever going to be lonely and tired and beaten down, now is the time to do it. johnny cash wrote some of his best songs in his early to mid twenties. stick with it darlin, itll get better. in the mean time, those dating sites arent too bad, just dont put too much weight on them. theyre fun and kinda silly and if thats all they have to be, then you might have some fun with it.

i think youre delightful. and you are needed. i hope you know how much. thanks for dinner, talks, and everything else.

stixobutta January 17 2007, 03:40:12 UTC

thing is i got used to and enjoyed my alone time many years ago.. i was proud of my self sufficiency.. i forced myself to grow up early.. i remember the very moment... when being driven home from work by a drunk father at age 14... I mean i was alone before that, since my rents got divorced i guess. but that particular moment was when i realized i needed to take my life into my onw hands our else my irresponsble alchoholic of a father was gonna fuck it up for me... and i wasn't gonna hve it..so since then i've felt alone.. amonst my friends, alone...at school.. alone. when i ost my brother i was alone, no one to understand my...in a five year realationship with someone i suposedly loved during that time, the comfort i felt was when i was alone.. with my self.. cause i know what makes me comfortable... so your right, again. without question. but i think i'm ahead of myself here. or beyond... i just haven't felt any different (all together) in eons.. and i'm ready to know what someone else feels like... even a glimpse once in a while ( ... )