same etry but longer
The other day I got to spend an evening with a group of people I don't know very well but we know each other through business means. They are from LA and even though they adopted the mannerisms of that place they are some of the first people I met there who spoke to me with friendliness and intelligence and didn't just come off at egotistical brats who.
It made me think about who sterile and tight-casted my personality has become. It has been such a long time since I made friends with people out of blind connection. These people dont know I am some loser with a Yo-yo that hates everyone, they just see a morbid person and they treat me differently because of it.
They also did something that I have yet to see anyone here do which is use the phone to call me in order to plan where to meet and then meet me there. thats called being reliable and I have also forgotten, I dwell on these things lately because I have just finished APE which is a peculiar event due to the fact that almost everyone who says they want to help me with that event cant seem to hold to their word.
I havent made new friends in a long time, I honestly can say my life is very lonely, my lifestyle choices and outcomes have given me this situation. I have friends, I hate them, I try hard to cater to them but in the end they dont even care and would never help me. I would usually blame this on myself, as I doubt anyone really thinks that way, but right now I am somewhat angry and I want to blame it on evetyone else.
I dont remember where I was going ith this
It made me think about who sterile and tight-casted my personality has become. It has been such a long time since I made friends with people out of blind connection. These people dont know I am some loser with a Yo-yo that hates everyone, they just see a morbid person and they treat me differently because of it.
They also did something that I have yet to see anyone here do which is use the phone to call me in order to plan where to meet and then meet me there. thats called being reliable and I have also forgotten, I dwell on these things lately because I have just finished APE which is a peculiar event due to the fact that almost everyone who says they want to help me with that event cant seem to hold to their word.
I havent made new friends in a long time, I honestly can say my life is very lonely, my lifestyle choices and outcomes have given me this situation. I have friends, I hate them, I try hard to cater to them but in the end they dont even care and would never help me. I would usually blame this on myself, as I doubt anyone really thinks that way, but right now I am somewhat angry and I want to blame it on evetyone else.
I dont remember where I was going ith this