sometimes lyrics speak to me
"Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life
Well, I've been afraid of changing 'cause I built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
I'm getting older too"
Winds of change have been blowing strongly through my life in the past year and a half. I've always said that I embraced my own personal growth and evolution. I still stand by that. I find that I'm getting more confident in myself, even though I still set such high standards for my own actions, thoughts and feelings. Some say I am far too hard on myself, but I don't think I would be me if I weren't.
Learning to trust, that has been so hard for me. But I can say without hesitation that I am learning. Thanks to the love and friendship of my oh so very dear Chris, I'm starting to see the rewards in finally accepting that there are people out there that are trustworthy. Bless you, love, for sneaking in when I wasn't looking. You will truly never know just how much you've already done for me.
I've always had enough self confidence to know that I could pull through just about anything that life can throw at me, and I've come to really believe in that confidence. While all of my worries about my father leaving me at some point have not vanished, they don't seem as overwhelming as they had before. A very wise friend reminded me that I will always have a part of my father with me, within me. I had been so caught up in the mere physical side of being able to pick up the phone to talk, ask advice, or just get my head put back on straight. I wasn't even thinking about how most of the time now when I call for such talks, I already know the answers, and they're the same ones he gives me.
I guess I am growing up. It is about time.
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life
Well, I've been afraid of changing 'cause I built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
I'm getting older too"
Winds of change have been blowing strongly through my life in the past year and a half. I've always said that I embraced my own personal growth and evolution. I still stand by that. I find that I'm getting more confident in myself, even though I still set such high standards for my own actions, thoughts and feelings. Some say I am far too hard on myself, but I don't think I would be me if I weren't.
Learning to trust, that has been so hard for me. But I can say without hesitation that I am learning. Thanks to the love and friendship of my oh so very dear Chris, I'm starting to see the rewards in finally accepting that there are people out there that are trustworthy. Bless you, love, for sneaking in when I wasn't looking. You will truly never know just how much you've already done for me.
I've always had enough self confidence to know that I could pull through just about anything that life can throw at me, and I've come to really believe in that confidence. While all of my worries about my father leaving me at some point have not vanished, they don't seem as overwhelming as they had before. A very wise friend reminded me that I will always have a part of my father with me, within me. I had been so caught up in the mere physical side of being able to pick up the phone to talk, ask advice, or just get my head put back on straight. I wasn't even thinking about how most of the time now when I call for such talks, I already know the answers, and they're the same ones he gives me.
I guess I am growing up. It is about time.