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I need to bitch about a growing problem, so just hang tight people. i'm putting it under a cut, it's not like anyone's gonna even look at it anyway, much less comment or care, but it's something that i can't pretend doesn't exist anymore and i need to get it off my chest.
i'm so tired.
i'm tired of being treated like i don't matter. i'm tired of being blown off like i'm some stupid little sister, or whatever the hell she thinks i am. i want to be treated like i matter, even if i don't. maybe i'm being a brat. i don't care. i'm tired of it, i'm tired of everything. i'm tired of wasting hours moping and thinking about it. i'm tired of crying myself to sleep. i want to feel like i actually mean something to somebody, even if i don't. i'm tired of meaning so much less to her than the all-wonderful best friend. i think i've lost the meaning of the word "family". i'm so sick of this, god i'm so tired, i'm so tired, i'm so tired.
I am all cried out.
i'm so tired.
i'm tired of being treated like i don't matter. i'm tired of being blown off like i'm some stupid little sister, or whatever the hell she thinks i am. i want to be treated like i matter, even if i don't. maybe i'm being a brat. i don't care. i'm tired of it, i'm tired of everything. i'm tired of wasting hours moping and thinking about it. i'm tired of crying myself to sleep. i want to feel like i actually mean something to somebody, even if i don't. i'm tired of meaning so much less to her than the all-wonderful best friend. i think i've lost the meaning of the word "family". i'm so sick of this, god i'm so tired, i'm so tired, i'm so tired.
I am all cried out.