a little sooner than expected

[stikkfigure]

 so today i went down to see katie for the first time in over a month. i left knowing it would be the last time i would see her this summer, and the last time i would ever see that house again. when i got there, she was quiet, and would not answer me as to what she wanted to do while i was there. after awkwardly standing around for 15-20 minutes while i kept asking what she wanted to do, we both ended up sitting down in the living room. finally she let out what she had been holding in for the entire time. she told me she was not as emotionally invested in the relationship as i was and that she felt guilty every time she saw me, that she didn't miss me that much when she was gone on her trip, and that she thought we should break up. i agreed, and told her i was not getting what i wanted out of the relationship anyway. that was pretty much all that was said. i said goodbye and drove away.

i am doing ok. i am definitely a little sad, but i don't feel much different than i did yesterday really. this relationship has been dying all summer, and has really been dead for the last month. i was willing to wait it out until school reconvened and give it one last shot, but if she doesn't want to, then thats probably all for the best. i am sad because i had some good times with her, and i will miss those. but i am far from devastated.

now the fun begins all over again.