what are you waiting for? kiss her, kiss her
so this last weekend was freakin awesome. we left thursday afternoon and made it to vegas around 6 or 7. we checked into our hotel (the Sahara) and then walked up and down the strip for the rest of the night. it was fun. the next day, we headed for utah. after a few stops (including one in cedar city for gas/ big snowball fight) we arrived in Provo. we split up, and i stayed with Kharas for the night. next morning we drove into Salt Lake City for General Conference. it was awesome being in the conference center and seeing it in person. the messages were great, and the whole atmosphere was incredible. during the first session, Neil Anderson was called as the newest apostle. it was cool to see that. and the Mormon Tabernacle Choir was amazing. television does not do them justice. they sound SO much better in person. sunday was the same routine, and then we drove home, making it here at 130 AM monday morning
this trip did a lot of things for me. first, it was just an incredible experience all the way around. second, it strengthened my friendships with everyone, especially linda, lauren, and katie. jason foutz went from someone i was annoyed by and somewhat jealous of to someone whose presence i fully enjoy. and it did much to decrease the insecurity i feel in my relationship with katie, although some of it has returned since we have been back
which brings me to my next thought, one that has been taking over me lately, that of kissing her. i have not done it yet, despite the fact that i really want to. i have several reasons. one, i am a little terrified. i am completely out of practice. i want it to be special, and i don't want to screw it up. also, i have been told she is not in a hurry to be kissed, though she wouldn't mind it. so i don't want to do it too early, because i am still fairly certain i am more into this than she is. but the biggest reason is that i don't feel like the proper moment has availed itself. there have been some moments where i wanted to, but didn't because there were others around. if she is not completely comfortable holding my hand in public, than she certainly won't be comfortable kissing me in front of other people. and in the brief moments we have been alone, there hasn't really been a chance to do it. ugh all this uncertainty is driving me insane. wednesday will be one month. i really want to do it then. i will just have to overcome all my uncertainty and take a chance. isnt that what i said i was going to do more of this year? take chances? ive been doing great so far, why stop now?
so am i lame for having not kissed her yet? or is it cute that i have waited? because i am beginning to wonder...
this trip did a lot of things for me. first, it was just an incredible experience all the way around. second, it strengthened my friendships with everyone, especially linda, lauren, and katie. jason foutz went from someone i was annoyed by and somewhat jealous of to someone whose presence i fully enjoy. and it did much to decrease the insecurity i feel in my relationship with katie, although some of it has returned since we have been back
which brings me to my next thought, one that has been taking over me lately, that of kissing her. i have not done it yet, despite the fact that i really want to. i have several reasons. one, i am a little terrified. i am completely out of practice. i want it to be special, and i don't want to screw it up. also, i have been told she is not in a hurry to be kissed, though she wouldn't mind it. so i don't want to do it too early, because i am still fairly certain i am more into this than she is. but the biggest reason is that i don't feel like the proper moment has availed itself. there have been some moments where i wanted to, but didn't because there were others around. if she is not completely comfortable holding my hand in public, than she certainly won't be comfortable kissing me in front of other people. and in the brief moments we have been alone, there hasn't really been a chance to do it. ugh all this uncertainty is driving me insane. wednesday will be one month. i really want to do it then. i will just have to overcome all my uncertainty and take a chance. isnt that what i said i was going to do more of this year? take chances? ive been doing great so far, why stop now?
so am i lame for having not kissed her yet? or is it cute that i have waited? because i am beginning to wonder...