I once again feel like my natural state of being is to: a. fuck things up and b. cause a sudden feeling of disappointment in everyone i care about.

I want to be anywhere but here.

so your reaction to me telling you about how i'm tired of having to spend time with someone who's been borderline verbally abusive with me for five years is have him come over and watch me because you're concerned about me?

oh really.

ha.

i'm going to a movie party tonight, so idk if i'll be on at all tonight. I still am in a sort of 'I hate life' mood, and am basically dragging myself to this because otherwise I'll just be at home thinking about how much of a fuck up I am and masturbating to /d/. But before I go, I'm going to leave you with this question;


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there's a dog i've known for as long as i can remember that isn't even mine

he was 13? 12ish, idk.

he was put down.

sfdsfsfsdfgsfsdaf WHY DOES THIS MAKE ME SO SAD???

...... getting my account deleted on a dumb petsite is causing me way more grief than it should.

NOT REALLY THE FACT THAT IT GOT DELETED just the memories. Back when I wasn't burning bridges left and right.

fffffff I AM NOT ON MY PERIOD ANYMORE WHY THE FUCK IS THIS MAKING ME SO EMO

WAAAAAAAAAH PACKERS

I hate it when I prove people right.

I hate the world today!

okay so mom crying freaks me out apparently and dad's 'LOL U GAVE IT A GUD LYFE I IS PROUD' speech is getting old.

I HOPE WE DON'T LOSE THE HOUSE THAT WOULD SUCK

BUT DAD'S PROBABLY GOING TO GET THE DOG

AND MY CAT IS DEAD AND IN A BOX IN THE BASEMENT

AND I HOPE YOU'RE HAPPY STUCKERT BILL MOYERS IS BEING TAPED

... anyway