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sometimes i tell myself, i should have more self-respect...but that i guess that never convinces me
perhaps it's more that i should have more respect for that which God has created and because of God i choose to respect myself
i think for the first time in my life, i'm unsure of who i am
in some ways it feels like i am unraveling...perhaps i am...it's all for the better right? to be made new...
it was really nice tonight, although i was hoping to meet with him one on one for dinner...the friends were a pleasant surprise...listening to them talk helped me realize how much i need physical affection...i believe that's a part of me that rarely gets out and so maybe that's why i feel so sad sometimes...sometimes i discard the belief that physical affection is a necessary part of my life, but i honestly don't think i can live without it...i feel so sad without it sometimes...but the person i am now, doesn't really hug until i'm pretty familiar with a person -- that's why it was so refreshing to hug this random person i just met
maybe that's part of why UCW felt so good to me the first day -- the hugs
i remember it took so long before my mom would hug me more often...it's only in recent years she's hugged me more...but even then, i still feel really in need of that
this is probably why i would love a dog...it doesn't matter who i've been or who i am...the dog (assuming the right type) will still love me
perhaps it's more that i should have more respect for that which God has created and because of God i choose to respect myself
i think for the first time in my life, i'm unsure of who i am
in some ways it feels like i am unraveling...perhaps i am...it's all for the better right? to be made new...
it was really nice tonight, although i was hoping to meet with him one on one for dinner...the friends were a pleasant surprise...listening to them talk helped me realize how much i need physical affection...i believe that's a part of me that rarely gets out and so maybe that's why i feel so sad sometimes...sometimes i discard the belief that physical affection is a necessary part of my life, but i honestly don't think i can live without it...i feel so sad without it sometimes...but the person i am now, doesn't really hug until i'm pretty familiar with a person -- that's why it was so refreshing to hug this random person i just met
maybe that's part of why UCW felt so good to me the first day -- the hugs
i remember it took so long before my mom would hug me more often...it's only in recent years she's hugged me more...but even then, i still feel really in need of that
this is probably why i would love a dog...it doesn't matter who i've been or who i am...the dog (assuming the right type) will still love me