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i just went through and read all of our entries, trying to see if anythign made me feel anything.
it sure did.
i can't believe how long i sat there and just put up with everything. I read one of yours when you were saying how good it felt to come back over and see me, and how good it had felt when we...were together.. and then just after that entry you were saying that you wish you loved me like you used to and that you cant stand behind something you didnt agree with. And then there was me, leaving helpless little comments saying im waiting saying i love you saying im SORRY...and then writing entries saying that i miss you and i didnt care what happened as long as we were together. How? How did i feel like that? There were so many times in just reading these entries that we were like YAY HAPPY EVERYTHINGS GONNA CHANGE and then you would end it an did be crying again. Dont you see any of that? AHHHH! I wish iwould have just walked away the first time it was over, because i wouldnt have had to go through all of that. Or maybe even the second time, or third or fourth.
im sorry...i just dont know.
it sure did.
i can't believe how long i sat there and just put up with everything. I read one of yours when you were saying how good it felt to come back over and see me, and how good it had felt when we...were together.. and then just after that entry you were saying that you wish you loved me like you used to and that you cant stand behind something you didnt agree with. And then there was me, leaving helpless little comments saying im waiting saying i love you saying im SORRY...and then writing entries saying that i miss you and i didnt care what happened as long as we were together. How? How did i feel like that? There were so many times in just reading these entries that we were like YAY HAPPY EVERYTHINGS GONNA CHANGE and then you would end it an did be crying again. Dont you see any of that? AHHHH! I wish iwould have just walked away the first time it was over, because i wouldnt have had to go through all of that. Or maybe even the second time, or third or fourth.
im sorry...i just dont know.