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how our attitutdes change from one day to the next. we all have our revelations and our worries about how our lives need to change. we don't see this coming. as reality sets in it's a pressured burn in the back of your throat. what to do with the rest of the day's afternoon. who was it? who was in the wrong? what do i see myself as? what can i handle? i can't tell when im lying to myself anymore. im fucked up right now, not choice to be around. i don't understand people, everyone i knew is changing. how much have drugs taken over everyone's life. Good times push over the bad, make them seem irrelevant, but they're not. they overpower. i can find nothing right now. nothing to hold on to. i try to push everything in. hold it in. dramatic
have i smiled yet today?
have i smiled yet today?