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So yeah it's bin a weird lil time for me, my last two updates have been me rantin and ravin and got a few people wondering if their to blame blah blah blah. Nah no-one's to blame really it's just me being unluckily me :-P lol. Nah i dunno whats going on people are going to uni i kinda wish i was going with them, and then a part of me wishes i wasn't. My works trying to fire me for having epilepsy and dislocating my shoulder so that's not a lot of fun and it's all going a bit off for me right now. I went to Durham today with Toria to get her passport which had me being the optomist? ~Shudders~ Thats never my role i'm the pessimist you always have one of each it's how it works lol. But that trip ended in me wearing a pimps costume a whoopee cushion costume and toria wearing a cat girl outfit and a sumo wrestler outfit. weird or what? I bought the libertines album which is really really good, i've got a sega mega drive coming to me shortly which will be cool as i'm thinking of doing up my garage as my own lil space as well as my room, fitness equipment and chill out equipment will be a good touch. I really want to get out there and start giving my all fitness wise i'm tired of just living in what i've been told i should be proud of body. Once i'm given the all clear i swear it's going to be all hands on deck and i pray for that day. I've fallen out i think with Rick one of my oldest friends coz i sent him a txt saying he's bailing on us all the time and he needs to meet me one on one and he's just well not done anything about it. I always thought me him and tom would be friends all the way.....i know everyone says that about their friends but i guess we thought we were different. I'm finding it still hard to understand why people find it necessary to lie about things which don't matter, I am gullable i admit to that because unless i have reason to doubt them or they have reason to lie why should they lie or i not believe them? I'm like a sheltered fat puppy who doesn't know the real world it would seem. Still not got an appointment to see the doctors bout my epilepsy or the physio about my arm, i swear they only pretend to care like most people. Though there is some good news Happy Birthday Susako hope you have a great one. Erm yeah don't know really what else to say so to all the sad people who actually read this chunk of writing, go out instead next time and have fun. Live life for the moments not the day coz thats all life is a series of moments and it's what we do with them that counts.