I only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me
hey hey!!!
havent wrote in ages it seems like. well the last time i wrote things were fucked and again i was depressed. im not really anymore...besides i myself piss myself off if that makes any sense..well anyways me n kenny are friends again but i dont want him THANK GOD! anywho lets see i have found yet a new love.. sad yet true.. but this time he lives farther and will be harder to get to like me..his name is spencer and is my cousin tommaso's best friend..ah i want him so bad and i dont know why. well the other night at tommaso's house he stayed the night there too and it was cool ended up me n him stayingup till the ass crack of dawn aka 6 in the morning. it was fun he pole danced for me haha yeah hes a nerd but i love him dont know why but i do...hmm lets see nikki n tommaso are talking i hope things go well with that cuz i dunno i think hed treat her good he even told me so he thinks shes amazing its so cute and she thinks hes a sweet heart and is cute...lol yeah well the other night there i dont know how but i was like beat up hardcore it seemed like i got tossed around, tickled to death, and bit my lip a few times too.. not fun anywho theres a lot to that night but to much to type haha. well lets see today my back got really bad accually since saturday must be from that hard night at tommaso's haha all the sex from spencer. haha just kidding no sex could have but didnt cuz im a good girl...but think about that how fucked up would that be...? ah ok enough about that volleyballs ok mrs. wenz is getting crazy with all this conditioning n shit she makes us do which by the way is killing my back. so im not gunna party till volleyball is over...sucks but i can do it maybe...new years eve i will most likely haha whatever fuck the school cant control my life at home. anywho i love you all and lets hope that this thing with this boy isnt just another silly crush and that maybe we'll get together im doubting it thats why im hoping and praying haha im pathetic LOVE YOU ALL!!!