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hey so nothing new really on jv volleyball but most of you know this already its kickin my ass cuz my back is hurtin ahh not good hmmlets see its not going well im sucking at everything...me n kenny are now at least talking i guess today i went and saw him at 8 with nora we were supose tos ee harry potter but they are gay and told me that it started at 7:30 when it really started at 6:30 or something so yeah we didnt even touch not even a hug it was akward.. yeah so then we cruised dropped them off me n nor went to micky d's then dropped her off did some thinking decided i seriously need to get over him. i dont want to but i know i should cuz he really depresses me and hes mean to me sometimes most of the time. god fuck boys i can never seem to get the boy things right they always hurt me and i hate it. i want chris back so bad i wish i could get a hold of him. its sad i knew him for a few days hooked up for 2 week didnt get his last name and then like never talked to him like ever besides a few times.. i just wanna see them have closure audge knows and understands i need that with kenny to like a good bye for ever kiss and hug and i dunno maybe i want my life to be like a movie... me n nor had a nice talk commin home from seeing him i decided that this weekend id get wasted call him and make random sex noises to piss him off but i wont do that im to much of a pussy to do that cuz i dont want him not liking me i just want things to go back to the way they were like lets say last end of feb. cuz then my back wouldnt be so fucked and i wouldnt have met chris...so but i cant change things now.. i think i need help or something. i need a lot...well thats all for now i think.... love you all
Steph
Steph