Wow.
Today was good. For the most part. Average for the most part.
Woke up around 10, skipped the gym in lieu of...I don't remember. um? Eventually I went to Midnight Sun and asked about a million questions about tanning and bought a tanning package and now am tanner than I was after vacation. I put on one of those little heart stickers and texted Nick a picture of it. Then I went to my optometrist appt. and got my eyes dialated only 2 hours prior to working. Bad idea. The reversial drops he put in did nothing and my first day back at work can go down in history as the day I got the comments "wow you have big pupils" "damn what do you smoke to get your eyes like that?" and "you have the most beautiful eyes" frequently. My coworker who trained me is pregnant and we talked about that alot. My other coworker Ambers boyfriend of 4 years dumped her on her lunch break and she was devastated. I dont know how she didnt burst into tears and kept it together. I'd have been a wreck.
Nick came in and brought me the cell charger, he went to Qdoba and got dinner and came back and ate it in my Starbucks. I was annoyed because I was a precloser which means I get the shit jobs of cleaning the mats, the bathrooms, the dirty jobs. Its fun when your boyfriend comes in when your on register, when your making drinks. But scrubbing toilets? Not so much. He was a sweetheart though and when he finally left he said good bye and I said "Bye I lo-....Bye!" I almost said I love you. He turned around and said "I heard that" and I said "sorry it slipped" and he said "thats ok baby" and I said "no its not" (cause its not ok to be the one who loves and isnt loved in returned. it hurts like a bitch" and then he started walking away, paused, and turned back and gave me our I Love You signal (ok its the ESL's I Love You Signal...we always would do it when we were across in a room for eachother or driving away and cant say it) and I smiled really big and he left. I think that means he loves me? I called him after work to plan the next time I see him and neither of us mentioned it. I guess when I was drunk he meant what he said about loving me just not wanting to over use the saying. Thats fine with me. I wouldnt want it to lose its meaning either. When "i love you" becomes as common as "hi" or "bye" and not really meaning "I am so madly in love with you you are perfect and at this exact moment i am overcome by my love for you" its lame.
Called Liz, the girl I met at Ericas 20th. She and I are going to lunch tommorrow and its going to be a blast most likely. I need to call Cher. I need to call alot of people. I am very happy and very not happy all at once and its an awkward combination. I am freaked about my family situation, my dad leaves tommorrow for a month and it will be just my mom and I (or my mom and her dog and me at nicks). Im freaked about if I get into Western if it is the right thing for me. Maybe I will get pregnant and then I will have to stay here. I think that being pregnant and raising a kid would be a bit more challenging then a 1 1/2 hour long distance relationship though. I dont know. I am ready to move out. Minus the whole financial situation. Why cant I fast forward? I hate being in between things, everything feels temporary to me right now. At least I have some security with Nick. I dont know how I could ever be without him. I am so in love with him it is insane.
Wednesday:
GO TO GYM!!!
Go to Lizzes and chill between 12 and 4
Cher? Nick? Gym again?
Thurdsay:
Work 4:30AM-11Am
Nicks?
Friday:
Work 8am-4pm
Nicks?
Saturday
Work 7-3
For sure Nicks
Sunday
FOOTBALL!!!
Its kinda wierd how everyone can see my every move on Facebook. I don't think anyone likes it. I feel wierd if I read anything on my feed about other people cause I feel like a stalker or something. I hope facebook gets rid of it, i mean the sheer amount of people creating "facebook is physco" groups could get rid of it. I just feel bad for the people who put a shitload of work into creating it.
life will = great once i get my endorphins going at the gym!
Woke up around 10, skipped the gym in lieu of...I don't remember. um? Eventually I went to Midnight Sun and asked about a million questions about tanning and bought a tanning package and now am tanner than I was after vacation. I put on one of those little heart stickers and texted Nick a picture of it. Then I went to my optometrist appt. and got my eyes dialated only 2 hours prior to working. Bad idea. The reversial drops he put in did nothing and my first day back at work can go down in history as the day I got the comments "wow you have big pupils" "damn what do you smoke to get your eyes like that?" and "you have the most beautiful eyes" frequently. My coworker who trained me is pregnant and we talked about that alot. My other coworker Ambers boyfriend of 4 years dumped her on her lunch break and she was devastated. I dont know how she didnt burst into tears and kept it together. I'd have been a wreck.
Nick came in and brought me the cell charger, he went to Qdoba and got dinner and came back and ate it in my Starbucks. I was annoyed because I was a precloser which means I get the shit jobs of cleaning the mats, the bathrooms, the dirty jobs. Its fun when your boyfriend comes in when your on register, when your making drinks. But scrubbing toilets? Not so much. He was a sweetheart though and when he finally left he said good bye and I said "Bye I lo-....Bye!" I almost said I love you. He turned around and said "I heard that" and I said "sorry it slipped" and he said "thats ok baby" and I said "no its not" (cause its not ok to be the one who loves and isnt loved in returned. it hurts like a bitch" and then he started walking away, paused, and turned back and gave me our I Love You signal (ok its the ESL's I Love You Signal...we always would do it when we were across in a room for eachother or driving away and cant say it) and I smiled really big and he left. I think that means he loves me? I called him after work to plan the next time I see him and neither of us mentioned it. I guess when I was drunk he meant what he said about loving me just not wanting to over use the saying. Thats fine with me. I wouldnt want it to lose its meaning either. When "i love you" becomes as common as "hi" or "bye" and not really meaning "I am so madly in love with you you are perfect and at this exact moment i am overcome by my love for you" its lame.
Called Liz, the girl I met at Ericas 20th. She and I are going to lunch tommorrow and its going to be a blast most likely. I need to call Cher. I need to call alot of people. I am very happy and very not happy all at once and its an awkward combination. I am freaked about my family situation, my dad leaves tommorrow for a month and it will be just my mom and I (or my mom and her dog and me at nicks). Im freaked about if I get into Western if it is the right thing for me. Maybe I will get pregnant and then I will have to stay here. I think that being pregnant and raising a kid would be a bit more challenging then a 1 1/2 hour long distance relationship though. I dont know. I am ready to move out. Minus the whole financial situation. Why cant I fast forward? I hate being in between things, everything feels temporary to me right now. At least I have some security with Nick. I dont know how I could ever be without him. I am so in love with him it is insane.
Wednesday:
GO TO GYM!!!
Go to Lizzes and chill between 12 and 4
Cher? Nick? Gym again?
Thurdsay:
Work 4:30AM-11Am
Nicks?
Friday:
Work 8am-4pm
Nicks?
Saturday
Work 7-3
For sure Nicks
Sunday
FOOTBALL!!!
Its kinda wierd how everyone can see my every move on Facebook. I don't think anyone likes it. I feel wierd if I read anything on my feed about other people cause I feel like a stalker or something. I hope facebook gets rid of it, i mean the sheer amount of people creating "facebook is physco" groups could get rid of it. I just feel bad for the people who put a shitload of work into creating it.
life will = great once i get my endorphins going at the gym!