Oh Snap
I realized last night as I lay in bed eating candy i bought for my brother (my brief stint as an anorexic always ends that way) that I have a problem. But last I checked there is like no 12-step program for sugar addicts. Seriously yesturday all I ate was candy. Like for real. that and a bunch of diet rockstar energy drinks. I also realized last night that I have exactly 20 days until I need to be in a bikini on the beach in Lake Chelan...and my brothers hot friend is coming soooo.... here is the ridiculous plan that I will actually stick to in order to be bikini ready:
NO SUGAR FOR 20 DAYS.
my heart just stopped. no sugar for more than 20 minutes makes me go crazy. I am talking 20 fucking days. my reward: 1 piece of fudge from ye olde fudge shoppe in leavenworth and a sexy bod. I hope.
So I went to sleep and awoke this morning and my mom put me straight to work on my brothers grad party and so i had no food in my tummy and when she left my first thought was for me to eat some candy for breakfast. But instead I am eating my wierd concoction i have loved since i was 8 which is a whole wheat tortilla (and only 50 cal) with all natural peanut butter. i cant even get sugar from peanut butter thats how good i have been. i serisoulsy was thisclose to throwing in the towel before i even began! pathetic. So anyway i will not eat sugar (minus like fruit and stuff, im talking badddddd sugar) for 20 days and hopefully lose like 5 or more pounds. I will also work out at least 3 days a week and if i work out 5 i can buy a magazine.
oh why oh why did i start this when there is cheesecake in the house lol!
I will not eat sugar 4 20 days.
NO SUGAR FOR 20 DAYS.
my heart just stopped. no sugar for more than 20 minutes makes me go crazy. I am talking 20 fucking days. my reward: 1 piece of fudge from ye olde fudge shoppe in leavenworth and a sexy bod. I hope.
So I went to sleep and awoke this morning and my mom put me straight to work on my brothers grad party and so i had no food in my tummy and when she left my first thought was for me to eat some candy for breakfast. But instead I am eating my wierd concoction i have loved since i was 8 which is a whole wheat tortilla (and only 50 cal) with all natural peanut butter. i cant even get sugar from peanut butter thats how good i have been. i serisoulsy was thisclose to throwing in the towel before i even began! pathetic. So anyway i will not eat sugar (minus like fruit and stuff, im talking badddddd sugar) for 20 days and hopefully lose like 5 or more pounds. I will also work out at least 3 days a week and if i work out 5 i can buy a magazine.
oh why oh why did i start this when there is cheesecake in the house lol!
I will not eat sugar 4 20 days.