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I leave for France on Friday. FUCKING FRIDAY!!
That is only 5 days away. Hot damn.
It seems so unreal to me. I grew up in an area with a lot of money. It all kind of floated above me though and I never felt like I was financailly well off. Of course this wasn,'t really the truth until my parents divorced, my mom got fired, and we were weeks away from losing our home. That was really when there wasn't money. Either way, there was never money around for lavish vacations or exotic experiences. While my classmates journyed over seass to exotic locals, europe, or on some ski adventure I went to Rockford to visit an uncle. I realize now that I still had enought to get by and my depreviation was merely relative.
That is partially why this seems so unreal. There is a large part of me that thought this would never happen to me. I would never be able to travel to europe or have experiences like all the rich kids did.
But I'e made it happen. Just like I managed to make four years of college happen. I wouldn't have been able without finding a special way to do it. Being an RA finding scholarships, convincing faculty that I was worth fighting for, and finding a trip to France for super cheap and then convincing them to take me. I don't know- I'm proud of where I've come. And I am also realizing how I have surpassed my expectations. I am proud and I am about to embark on an experience I wasn't sure was possible.
EEEKKKS!
That is only 5 days away. Hot damn.
It seems so unreal to me. I grew up in an area with a lot of money. It all kind of floated above me though and I never felt like I was financailly well off. Of course this wasn,'t really the truth until my parents divorced, my mom got fired, and we were weeks away from losing our home. That was really when there wasn't money. Either way, there was never money around for lavish vacations or exotic experiences. While my classmates journyed over seass to exotic locals, europe, or on some ski adventure I went to Rockford to visit an uncle. I realize now that I still had enought to get by and my depreviation was merely relative.
That is partially why this seems so unreal. There is a large part of me that thought this would never happen to me. I would never be able to travel to europe or have experiences like all the rich kids did.
But I'e made it happen. Just like I managed to make four years of college happen. I wouldn't have been able without finding a special way to do it. Being an RA finding scholarships, convincing faculty that I was worth fighting for, and finding a trip to France for super cheap and then convincing them to take me. I don't know- I'm proud of where I've come. And I am also realizing how I have surpassed my expectations. I am proud and I am about to embark on an experience I wasn't sure was possible.
EEEKKKS!