I Just Wanna Be Anywhere But Here
I just don't wanna be here anymore. I hate my life I hate everything about myself. I hate how i work at the theatre still, I love hairdressing but it's not gonna get me anywhere that i'm gonna make a lot of money have benifits etc. I feel like i'm going no where in life and my life is how it is gonna be for the rest of my life ALONE.
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I know what it's like to pretend to be happy too ... I try so hard to be happy here in Dartmouth but really I hate it and want to go back home. I take it out on Troy, and it's not his fault, but I can't help it because I'm just so unhappy here. :( Coming home this weekend was like a vacation for me. I didn't want to leave.
You will be happy someday ... you can never know when, but it will happen eventually. That's what keeps me here going to school, knowing that someday things will be better and I won't have to live here anymore. I study constantly and don't go out anywhere because I keep thinking if I have perfect grades and do everything right, I'll be able to go home.
I'm sorry we didn't get a chance to hang out while I was home. Some weekend you will have to take a day off and come in here to see me because then you'll get out of Bridgewater for the day and won't have to think about everything, and then it will take my mind off of things too.
You can call me anytime you need too ... or e-mail me because that's not long distance. :) But, it's 434-7875 if you want to call anyways!
I will hopefully be back home to visit again soon ... I'll let you know when!
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