tour diary day two and other junk
ok so im not even goin to waste my time with outlining every single episode of the jizstiffcore tour. ill sum it up in 5 words.... I WISH ID NEVER GONE!
as you may have read in my previous post things happened on day 1 of the tour due to stupid drunken behaviour that upset me a great deal. I woke up friday with a positive outlook on the situation and how it would turn out that night with a few apologies and corrected words of meaning. wel yeah that it did. Waited for what seemed forever to see the person. Finally saw them with only 5 mins for them to spare me.. gave them a hug, they hugged me back, i apologised immensely, they accepted and told me not to worry as thye knew it was alcohol talking and things were fine between us. *SIGH* WHAT A RELIEF! They ask what we were doing after, i had no idea so they promised to find me after and talk. and then they were gone.
The next 45 mins seemed to be the longest 45 mins of my life. I was so anxious to talk to this person and talk and laugh about things that we could have spoke and laughed of the night before had i not been so pathetically drunk. Ok turns out the person goes 'missing'. hung out with a friend who i love to see when they come to queensland and he reminded me what an amazing person he is and all the good chats we'd shared over the past few years. still no sign. in the end i give up. my problem walked through the band room door so i walked out. they say its best not to ignore a problem.. i say it is when it upsets you that much.
so end of the night finally rolls around. the way im feeling is so indescribable that it begins to hurt. i look for my friends so i can say my goodbyes. kez has let me confide all my worries in her again - she is such an amazing person. i say goodbye to the big man.. he reassures me that im a beautiful person and none of what has happened is my fault and hes there for me if i wanna chat later on. I LOVE YOU. So just before im about to leave i see them.. with my problem. I wait for them to single themself out and i wandered off to say goodbye. thats exactly what it was. i dont know how to think of this person anymore. I havent exactly lost respect but i feel that our friendship really disintegrated and theres no way to redeem itself in the near future. Its so hard to tell someone that they are the reason you are leaving.
and that was it.. my night was over and i felt so was the most important part of our friendship. So long.. i love you
saturday wasnt bad. got to neils about 2.30pm, just in time to get him to his jam with gav and deano. neil seems so asleep and unmotivated its not funny. Deano informs us that we need to go to his house that night for a party. why the party... because shane caught a fish and they were going to eat it. gav informs us we need to go to the beergarden with him and allira. we end up staying home watching movies.
sunday was a laid back day. we basically stayed around and watched futurama.. oh and got some dog toys for ron because he turned 2 last weekend and neil forgot. last night we drove around to all the surrounding pubs looking for nice dinner but we ended up and the good ol' central part tavern. went nad got a movie out and watched that after i studied.
so today was spent at 'school'. pretty interesting learning about drug administering. neil was suppose to come up tonight but his work was gay and didnt let him. oh well maybe some other night.
I just want my friends to know... some of you i want ot remain friends with for the rest of my life. you bring me such a feeling of greatfulness and life. I dont know what id do without you. xoxo
to neil, when we started out you took on a whole bunch load of problems with me, yet you've stuck through and been there for me when i needed you most. I truly love you and i know what we have is something so beautiful that it will last a lifetime. xoxo
Good night.
as you may have read in my previous post things happened on day 1 of the tour due to stupid drunken behaviour that upset me a great deal. I woke up friday with a positive outlook on the situation and how it would turn out that night with a few apologies and corrected words of meaning. wel yeah that it did. Waited for what seemed forever to see the person. Finally saw them with only 5 mins for them to spare me.. gave them a hug, they hugged me back, i apologised immensely, they accepted and told me not to worry as thye knew it was alcohol talking and things were fine between us. *SIGH* WHAT A RELIEF! They ask what we were doing after, i had no idea so they promised to find me after and talk. and then they were gone.
The next 45 mins seemed to be the longest 45 mins of my life. I was so anxious to talk to this person and talk and laugh about things that we could have spoke and laughed of the night before had i not been so pathetically drunk. Ok turns out the person goes 'missing'. hung out with a friend who i love to see when they come to queensland and he reminded me what an amazing person he is and all the good chats we'd shared over the past few years. still no sign. in the end i give up. my problem walked through the band room door so i walked out. they say its best not to ignore a problem.. i say it is when it upsets you that much.
so end of the night finally rolls around. the way im feeling is so indescribable that it begins to hurt. i look for my friends so i can say my goodbyes. kez has let me confide all my worries in her again - she is such an amazing person. i say goodbye to the big man.. he reassures me that im a beautiful person and none of what has happened is my fault and hes there for me if i wanna chat later on. I LOVE YOU. So just before im about to leave i see them.. with my problem. I wait for them to single themself out and i wandered off to say goodbye. thats exactly what it was. i dont know how to think of this person anymore. I havent exactly lost respect but i feel that our friendship really disintegrated and theres no way to redeem itself in the near future. Its so hard to tell someone that they are the reason you are leaving.
and that was it.. my night was over and i felt so was the most important part of our friendship. So long.. i love you
saturday wasnt bad. got to neils about 2.30pm, just in time to get him to his jam with gav and deano. neil seems so asleep and unmotivated its not funny. Deano informs us that we need to go to his house that night for a party. why the party... because shane caught a fish and they were going to eat it. gav informs us we need to go to the beergarden with him and allira. we end up staying home watching movies.
sunday was a laid back day. we basically stayed around and watched futurama.. oh and got some dog toys for ron because he turned 2 last weekend and neil forgot. last night we drove around to all the surrounding pubs looking for nice dinner but we ended up and the good ol' central part tavern. went nad got a movie out and watched that after i studied.
so today was spent at 'school'. pretty interesting learning about drug administering. neil was suppose to come up tonight but his work was gay and didnt let him. oh well maybe some other night.
I just want my friends to know... some of you i want ot remain friends with for the rest of my life. you bring me such a feeling of greatfulness and life. I dont know what id do without you. xoxo
to neil, when we started out you took on a whole bunch load of problems with me, yet you've stuck through and been there for me when i needed you most. I truly love you and i know what we have is something so beautiful that it will last a lifetime. xoxo
Good night.