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I have to go to Dell today for orientation at 5:30pm. I think it will be fun. I am glad that I found a job really quick thanks to Matt C. I have had a pretty good week beside being sick all week. I have a terrible cough and stuffy head. I think I might be getting over it. I still coughed my head off last night though. It is only when I lie down that I can tell that I am really sick. I slept a good long while this morning like 7 hrs. Which is good since I went with Derrick to his home town in Ole Kentucky last night. I got to meet his Mom, Dad brother and sister. His sister is adoreable. We talked about gymnastics and we spoke Spanish to each other. That was fun. Then Derrick carried me all around Kentucky to show me around. We even went to some haunted places. Anyways, I had a great time and I think the world of Derrick. He is my kind of folks! Rite! LOL I am kind of sad about moving home but I will not be that far away. I just hate moving. UGH! I will be strong though.
I would like to say now that I am so sick of everyone thinking that everyone is a drug addict. People are saying that our whole group is on drugs. That is a rumor I am almost sure of. I have been in the gay scene for over 10 years and yeah most everybody has tried something or another and if they haven't already then they might. Some of our group has had past drug problems and they found out that abusing a drug was not the way to go in life. That is cool we commend them for coming clean. But a few people seem to think that everyone is abusing drugs in our group, I disagree, I see like two or three people doing it and yes I have even went to them like all the rest of you have and have told them to slow it down in which they should. We should learn from people who have already been through these problems and listen to them. But as for the whole group using drugs everyday or every weekend or so cracked out that they can't even function, that is just a lie. I am around everyone most all the time and lots of people tell me when they have tried it or slipped up and tried it again and I might hear of that like 1 every two months. This to me isn't drug abuse. I just don't see why we need to keep telling ourselves that everyone is abusing these drugs. One it is a lie and two it makes our group look terrible to people that randomly read these journals and we are just stirring the shit. Go to the person that you think has a drug problem and talk to them as a friend and not bash them in these journals and behind everyones backs, hey I have talked some shit too so I have come to realize myself that I need to stop making fun of people that do have a problem with it. That came to me this morning. I just think that would be the best thing. If they don't listen to you then tell them that you cannot continue to hang with them while they are abusing.
I just know that there is only two or three in our group abusing, there just can't be 30 of us abusing drugs cause hello we would see it. Can we not see right now who is abusing the drugs, it is obvious so why asume that everybody is abusing when we can obviously tell that they are not. I can name some many people that are not abusing drugs in our group. People don't you see. It is not making our group stronger by telling everyone that they are crack addicts when they are not. This has all the people that have tried it once or twice whether it be a week, month or year ago, thinking that you are calling them drugies. People are saying telling so many rumors like hey I heard that so and so is on drugs and it gets back to that person and they are thinking yeah I have tried it before and will tell anyone that asked that they have tried it before and then they are thinking "Why did my friend say I was on drugs when I am not?" I have heard people in our group that have never even tried a drug having to defend themselves when they shouldn't have to.
Yall I just think we need to confront people who are doing them and just stop all the gossip and if you know for sure that they are abusing then please try to save your friends life. We all need each others support. I don't think what we are doing now is healthy in any way for our group of friends. Now it is Spring, we need to plan group things to do. I miss getting together like at Coco's or the cooker. It was good to come together and visit with each other. I think we are all fine and that we can just plan a couple of cute gatherings and bring us all together and we will see how good it feels to have such great people who love us and SUPPORT us through our weakest moments.
I would just like to close with my little bit of information so that people will know. Like I said I have been on the gay scene for many years and yes I have tried so many things including Tina. And I have two things in the last 4 months Pot and Tina. And I can't say that I will never try anything again because I would be lying to you and myself. If they come up with a purple jesus feel good pill next year hey, I just might try that if I make that decision that day. I am not super human and I do make mistakes and I am curious about things and I do have a good head on my shoulders and I try to keep myself on the right path but I might slip off and I am glad that I have all of you because knowing that I have friends and family and a job keeps me from taking the wrong path because I would not want to do anything to lose any of them. I would hope that if I am going to far from my path that my friends would come and help me and not talk bad about me and make me feel like shit for messing up. I love you and hope that any of this made some kind of sense. I wish only the best for all of us and know that we can make as through anything as long as we stick together. MWAH!!!!
I would like to say now that I am so sick of everyone thinking that everyone is a drug addict. People are saying that our whole group is on drugs. That is a rumor I am almost sure of. I have been in the gay scene for over 10 years and yeah most everybody has tried something or another and if they haven't already then they might. Some of our group has had past drug problems and they found out that abusing a drug was not the way to go in life. That is cool we commend them for coming clean. But a few people seem to think that everyone is abusing drugs in our group, I disagree, I see like two or three people doing it and yes I have even went to them like all the rest of you have and have told them to slow it down in which they should. We should learn from people who have already been through these problems and listen to them. But as for the whole group using drugs everyday or every weekend or so cracked out that they can't even function, that is just a lie. I am around everyone most all the time and lots of people tell me when they have tried it or slipped up and tried it again and I might hear of that like 1 every two months. This to me isn't drug abuse. I just don't see why we need to keep telling ourselves that everyone is abusing these drugs. One it is a lie and two it makes our group look terrible to people that randomly read these journals and we are just stirring the shit. Go to the person that you think has a drug problem and talk to them as a friend and not bash them in these journals and behind everyones backs, hey I have talked some shit too so I have come to realize myself that I need to stop making fun of people that do have a problem with it. That came to me this morning. I just think that would be the best thing. If they don't listen to you then tell them that you cannot continue to hang with them while they are abusing.
I just know that there is only two or three in our group abusing, there just can't be 30 of us abusing drugs cause hello we would see it. Can we not see right now who is abusing the drugs, it is obvious so why asume that everybody is abusing when we can obviously tell that they are not. I can name some many people that are not abusing drugs in our group. People don't you see. It is not making our group stronger by telling everyone that they are crack addicts when they are not. This has all the people that have tried it once or twice whether it be a week, month or year ago, thinking that you are calling them drugies. People are saying telling so many rumors like hey I heard that so and so is on drugs and it gets back to that person and they are thinking yeah I have tried it before and will tell anyone that asked that they have tried it before and then they are thinking "Why did my friend say I was on drugs when I am not?" I have heard people in our group that have never even tried a drug having to defend themselves when they shouldn't have to.
Yall I just think we need to confront people who are doing them and just stop all the gossip and if you know for sure that they are abusing then please try to save your friends life. We all need each others support. I don't think what we are doing now is healthy in any way for our group of friends. Now it is Spring, we need to plan group things to do. I miss getting together like at Coco's or the cooker. It was good to come together and visit with each other. I think we are all fine and that we can just plan a couple of cute gatherings and bring us all together and we will see how good it feels to have such great people who love us and SUPPORT us through our weakest moments.
I would just like to close with my little bit of information so that people will know. Like I said I have been on the gay scene for many years and yes I have tried so many things including Tina. And I have two things in the last 4 months Pot and Tina. And I can't say that I will never try anything again because I would be lying to you and myself. If they come up with a purple jesus feel good pill next year hey, I just might try that if I make that decision that day. I am not super human and I do make mistakes and I am curious about things and I do have a good head on my shoulders and I try to keep myself on the right path but I might slip off and I am glad that I have all of you because knowing that I have friends and family and a job keeps me from taking the wrong path because I would not want to do anything to lose any of them. I would hope that if I am going to far from my path that my friends would come and help me and not talk bad about me and make me feel like shit for messing up. I love you and hope that any of this made some kind of sense. I wish only the best for all of us and know that we can make as through anything as long as we stick together. MWAH!!!!