The sweat of ur body covers me, can u picture this?

[stephdon]

I listened to myself say something today repeatedly, then thought, "What the hell was I thinking"? Because apparently I was wrong for assuming Pol cared or could care or ever would care about me. I was wrong for assuming that I was finally gonna be happy. My mom said, " The happiest I ever saw u was when u were with Pol". I said ," Yea, I had my five of fame, and now it is over. He doesnt want me anymore, I can't change it, and I hate havin the experience cause that is only one more thing to add to my list of things I crave more than life and can't have ever again".

I have had way too much time to think about things. I mean, I have all day and night to myself. And even when I am somewhere with Josh or anyone else, my mind is goin crazy....

RisK LifE, it iSn't ThaT bad to Be CraZy with ChanCes, Just Crazy NoT to Venture.