So, back in September I weighed approx. 150 pounds and was striving for a goal weight of 135. I never met it, and I gave up and went back to my normal b/p habits. In fact, not only did I not meet it, but I started to gain weight while I was restricting. I don't know why. Never examined it, just flipped out monumentally and gave up, and vowed never to weigh myself again because it was mentally agonizing.
Then yesterday I couldn't take it anymore. I got on the scale, and nearly had a fit.
133?
I lost significant weight binging and purging?
Lowest weight ever for me. Yet I still feel like shit about it, because I still look the same. Or that's how I see it. Everyone else tells me I look thinner. Body dysmorphia is the suck.
HW: 245
CW: 133
LW: 133
I shouldn't be doing this part, but I can't help it:
STGW: 125
LTGW: 115
At least I can no longer deny needing to buy new clothes. Most of my closet is from pre- 160 pounds, or so. I don't want to spend $$$$!