a miracle
so today a miracle happened.
i went over to sarah's house for abit of extra practice on our duet and to watch "la cenerentola"
then we started on religion. talking i mean. and i told her how ive had discussions with people who believe that while there may exist a god...they cant JUST accepts that he exists..they want to understand WHY he exists...or WHAT created him...and we both agreed that...some things arent meant to be understood...some things god wants you to know..he lets you understand...but..isnt it possible..that maybe just maybe...if god is so much bigger than everything...hes able to make it so while we CAN understand some things.... were not meant to understand others...yet at least. maybe that will be different when we join him in the kingdom.
then it happened. she asked me if i would like to invite god into my life...my heart said yes...but on the outside i was a little uneasy. relunctantly...i prayed...for the first time in a while...with sarah's help...
and then she asked if she could pray for me.
i said ok...she took my hand... and started to pray to god...she asked him to help me and watch over me and i started to cry.
i dont know for sure why i cried...i told her later i thought i cried because it made me feel really whole inside to know that...i'd no longer be alone. that i would have someone watching out for me. there to guide me if i ever need him. i cried as i started to say "also...i makes me feel really good inside to know that now when im alone..i dont have to be..."
even as i type this my eyes well up.
she gave me a bible to read...
we went on a walk around her house and down the street...we started talkin about things..but they seemd to make more sense to me...like....
why do bad things happen to good people?
*conclusion i derived: while god can help guide those who choose to open their heart to him....perhaps he has no control over those that choose to turn away form him and hurt those who dont deserve it.
therefore...even though those who are good will be taken care of in his kingdom..they will no longer be here on earth.
we talked about this man over in africa...actually where her parents are right now...joseph k. (forgot exact last name at the moment) but apparently he destroys villages...taking young boys from their famiilies, killing the families, and making the young boys either join his army or suffer the consequences.
apparently the problem going on rihgt now..is the army is built up of all the once taken-from their-homes children...who are now brainwashed to do his bidding.
she says she believes its a spiritual battle...like more is going on there then what people are capable of seeing with a naked eye.
she believes part of it to be possesion...but i dont know if she really meant POSSESSION like emily rose...but more like...how you can invite god into your life to help guide oyu to do right..maybe people like this joseph character have a way of inviting the devil or something evil into them to help them do the opposite...
sarah and i were friends before..but now...i feel like i have a really true friend in her. someone i can always turn to for advice and for guidance...someone who can help me find my "spiritual path"
she and i were talking...maybe the reason she and i both are doing the show...is so we would be able to have the oppotunity to have a duet together which would lead to practicing at her house...which would lead to this night...
its cool to think that maybe the reason we both did the show is so she could help me...because it was meant to be.
also have yo ever looked at the night sky? i mean REALLY looked at it? isnt it funny to think how small we must be...and how god being all powerful is probably bigger than the biggest thing you can imagine which for me..is the night sky.
i went over to sarah's house for abit of extra practice on our duet and to watch "la cenerentola"
then we started on religion. talking i mean. and i told her how ive had discussions with people who believe that while there may exist a god...they cant JUST accepts that he exists..they want to understand WHY he exists...or WHAT created him...and we both agreed that...some things arent meant to be understood...some things god wants you to know..he lets you understand...but..isnt it possible..that maybe just maybe...if god is so much bigger than everything...hes able to make it so while we CAN understand some things.... were not meant to understand others...yet at least. maybe that will be different when we join him in the kingdom.
then it happened. she asked me if i would like to invite god into my life...my heart said yes...but on the outside i was a little uneasy. relunctantly...i prayed...for the first time in a while...with sarah's help...
and then she asked if she could pray for me.
i said ok...she took my hand... and started to pray to god...she asked him to help me and watch over me and i started to cry.
i dont know for sure why i cried...i told her later i thought i cried because it made me feel really whole inside to know that...i'd no longer be alone. that i would have someone watching out for me. there to guide me if i ever need him. i cried as i started to say "also...i makes me feel really good inside to know that now when im alone..i dont have to be..."
even as i type this my eyes well up.
she gave me a bible to read...
we went on a walk around her house and down the street...we started talkin about things..but they seemd to make more sense to me...like....
why do bad things happen to good people?
*conclusion i derived: while god can help guide those who choose to open their heart to him....perhaps he has no control over those that choose to turn away form him and hurt those who dont deserve it.
therefore...even though those who are good will be taken care of in his kingdom..they will no longer be here on earth.
we talked about this man over in africa...actually where her parents are right now...joseph k. (forgot exact last name at the moment) but apparently he destroys villages...taking young boys from their famiilies, killing the families, and making the young boys either join his army or suffer the consequences.
apparently the problem going on rihgt now..is the army is built up of all the once taken-from their-homes children...who are now brainwashed to do his bidding.
she says she believes its a spiritual battle...like more is going on there then what people are capable of seeing with a naked eye.
she believes part of it to be possesion...but i dont know if she really meant POSSESSION like emily rose...but more like...how you can invite god into your life to help guide oyu to do right..maybe people like this joseph character have a way of inviting the devil or something evil into them to help them do the opposite...
sarah and i were friends before..but now...i feel like i have a really true friend in her. someone i can always turn to for advice and for guidance...someone who can help me find my "spiritual path"
she and i were talking...maybe the reason she and i both are doing the show...is so we would be able to have the oppotunity to have a duet together which would lead to practicing at her house...which would lead to this night...
its cool to think that maybe the reason we both did the show is so she could help me...because it was meant to be.
also have yo ever looked at the night sky? i mean REALLY looked at it? isnt it funny to think how small we must be...and how god being all powerful is probably bigger than the biggest thing you can imagine which for me..is the night sky.