My Life
Well i'm finally out of fucking high school (drama city), turning the big 18 in a week, and starting a new fucking life. i for one am very happy, i call it my grown up life, damn i couldn't wait to have a grown up life. yes sir i'm stress free, the reason why because i'm trying this grown up thing called JUST GIVING A FUCK ANYMORE. friday night i left all my issues and beefs in that fucking patriot center and came home a new person. thats just how you have to go or else your going to die early. thats only like right. after graduation i came home and chilled with i guess you can call him my bun, my bestfriend and the fam. its was really great although i had a migraine, that shit was hurting but i took some medicine and i felt better. but i felt so special i thought my bun wasn't going to come but he did and he was waiting for me right in front of where i came out of with some flowers. i felt so loved, we were supposed to go ride a boat in old town but that didn't happen. we got out of the patriot center to late. oh my fat girl gave me some flowers too so did my brother, i'm telling you man i felt so damn special, i've never had anyone give my flowers before. well yea we went back to my house, chilled outside eating pizza and talking, like we all got along. i'm so glad that everyone was on their best behavior for my graduation. no fights or attitudes, just smiles and happiness. i guess it had to happen that day cuz there sure wasn't any smiles or happiness saturday. man i had the pissiest attitude ALL day. it wasn't even funny. first my sister woke me up at like 6 in the damn morning, i was so fucking mad i was planing on sleeping until 12 or 1 that didn't happen. her and my bestfriend rolled me off my bed and got me dressed so i can take her to work. i did and i got to keep the truck i guess thats a happiness. but wit theres more. i come back home and ashley's mom calls asking me did she spend the night over my house. wait a minute i dropped her off at her house at like 10:30 goin on 11 friday night. why in the hell isn't she at hime and where in the hell can she be its like 8 in the morning. so i get a little worried but not much i just think ok i'll find her before 5:30(time my cookout started). well i take a nap and get up at like 12 and go to old navy(had to look good for MY cookout) then i went to pentagon got me some pimp shades thinking i was going out stunting with ashley later on that night(like we always do, its a everyday thing). so in between that time i call her house and her nephew is like she's not here. ok i'll just try back later then. so i go home take another shower and get dressed now its like 2 something so me and the bestfriend decide to go the mall. so we go like always theres nothing to do there so we went and got my sister from work. my sister takes us back to her house cuz the ding bat decides she want to work out BEFORE she pigs out. what a retard but hey thats her. so i call ashley again cuz i was right across the street. i call her moms cell phone and her nephew tells me that she's not there ok now i'm worried then i call her bestfriend and no one picks up. i'm like ok lets leave a message maybe she'll help me out here. so then i go over to her house and her mom tells me that she just left with her bestfriend and they are going to a cookout. well i thought that she was supposed to come to mine, hmmmm now i'm wondering. whats going on? i don't hear from her the whole day. now any normal person would call you if they are not able to make it to an event dealing with you. important event at that. well i'm pissed to the 5th power, i'm like how could you just say fuck me and not even tell me you weren't going to come. but let it be me i'm up the fucking creek with her ass, i better not even call her or else or else i'm getting the curse out of my life. prime example last year 4th of july she wants me to watch the fireworks with her, its not a definite yet. my boyfriend at the time came to my house early that day so went to the movies. i'm thinking ok since he's taking me out early i'm going to be able to be with him for part of the day and end the night with her. but no it didn't end up that way instead the date with my man lasted up to when the fireworks started, she's calling i'm like i'm with him give me sometime i'll be there. she gets mad and thats when we start beefing. i swear me and this girl act like we are a damn couple we are always fighting and arguing and beefing. ok so she beefing and saying how tired she is of this shit. i'm like i'm not always going to be able to drop everything i'm doing and everyone i'm with to be with you. someday i'm going to stop being your little cousin and grow up and have a life of my own.i mean she has to share even if she doesn't like to. i keep telling her that i'm not going anywhere. i am one person she does not have to worry about leaving her. no matter how stupid our beefs be or how pissed off she makes me I AIN'T GOIN NO WHERE. WHERE THE HELL AM I GOING TO ASHLEY, other then to work home and school. NO WHERE FOOL. so theres really no point for her to trip if i'm with another group of friends or my boyfriend, she knows damn well if she calls me no matter how many times she may call or who i'm with I'M ALWAYS GOING TO PICK UP THE PHONE. although i may tell her that i'm going to call her back i always do, at the end of the night no matter how tired i am or how early i have to wake up she always the last one i talk to before i go to sleep. thats my love and no one can ever replace her. what happened last night no one can turn it back but we can make it better by being mature adults and putting differences aside. well to naners i don't have a problem with you just don't want you hurting my bash, as you can see she means alot to me so just keep it real with eachother and everything will go well. and to bash you may not fuck with me but i'm always going to be here so whenever you need a shoulder or a couple dollars i'm here. proud of you too. love you bye