So Happy Together...
I realize that I am not being fair if I say that I want him to understand everything that I say. And I guess that I can't even being to expect that because it has taken me three years to be able to understand the things that I do. And it's also not like I don't understand that science is a specialized field making it harder for the common Joe to comprehend the tiny facets of it. Is it too much of me to expect him to not be an average Joe though?
However I do not think that I would be too much to ask for him to care; for me to feel like he cares, or for me to KNOW that he cares. I am thinking that when we do talk about this I want to be able to at least start the conversation looking at it from a nonjudgmental point of view. I would like to be able to have an unbiased conversation about it, however I know that because this is something that means so much to me that I would be kidding myself and him if I said I was going to be throughout. I know that I get emotional when I talk about things that I care about (its a double edged sword) so if I have a few points that I want to make I can follow that better.
I would like him to put forth more effort in trying to understand what I'm talking about.
I want him to care, personally, about what I say, not just the fact that I am talking. (Show more of an interest.)
I expect/want him to ask me to clarify if there is something that he doesn't understand. But I do not expect him to know the nuances explicitly.
I do not expect him to love/like science as much as I do, but possibly appreciate it for more than medical advances.
I would like for him to not judge me by what I take an interest in, and I need to expect myself to do the same.
I need to not get jealous... and I think that jealously is the correct term for it. I guess I could be a bit jealous that he has other interests. (I'm trying to look at this from different angles...)
I think that the first part is one of the most pressing. Mostly because I do no know how we could make a long term relationship past college succeed if we are not willing to put forth the effort. I don't think it's fair that I should have to censor or be afraid of what I care to talk about because he might not care.
Trying to be as dispassionate about this as possible is proving to be extremely difficult for me, but I am trying to succeed in it.
This has helped to calm me down, and I am trying to look at it in a different light, but that doesn't mean that any conversation will go smoothly. I wish that it could.
However I do not think that I would be too much to ask for him to care; for me to feel like he cares, or for me to KNOW that he cares. I am thinking that when we do talk about this I want to be able to at least start the conversation looking at it from a nonjudgmental point of view. I would like to be able to have an unbiased conversation about it, however I know that because this is something that means so much to me that I would be kidding myself and him if I said I was going to be throughout. I know that I get emotional when I talk about things that I care about (its a double edged sword) so if I have a few points that I want to make I can follow that better.
I would like him to put forth more effort in trying to understand what I'm talking about.
I want him to care, personally, about what I say, not just the fact that I am talking. (Show more of an interest.)
I expect/want him to ask me to clarify if there is something that he doesn't understand. But I do not expect him to know the nuances explicitly.
I do not expect him to love/like science as much as I do, but possibly appreciate it for more than medical advances.
I would like for him to not judge me by what I take an interest in, and I need to expect myself to do the same.
I need to not get jealous... and I think that jealously is the correct term for it. I guess I could be a bit jealous that he has other interests. (I'm trying to look at this from different angles...)
I think that the first part is one of the most pressing. Mostly because I do no know how we could make a long term relationship past college succeed if we are not willing to put forth the effort. I don't think it's fair that I should have to censor or be afraid of what I care to talk about because he might not care.
Trying to be as dispassionate about this as possible is proving to be extremely difficult for me, but I am trying to succeed in it.
This has helped to calm me down, and I am trying to look at it in a different light, but that doesn't mean that any conversation will go smoothly. I wish that it could.