vibrate higher
Women's history month means Chief Wilma Mankiller and Riot Grrrls. Every time I hear a woman speak about her leadership she tells me that I can do anything I want to, that if I want something done, I have to do it myself, and that I can change the world. It's so encouraging. I know that these have the potential to be very naive statements and ideas, and the potential to blow up in my face. And whenever I talk with such naive hopefulness to most people, I leave the conversation feeling discouraged, stupid, trivial and powerless. Then I think, "this is surely the devil trying to bring me down." I actually don't really believe in the devil, but I believe in evil, and I suppose that the devil is the easiest scapegoat. So I'm wondering, if I take this discouragement so personally, how will I ever rise above it? How will I deal with it? It happens daily. How can I stand this for the rest of my life? How can I listen to discouragement and still change the world? And if I can't change something, I don't see any reason for being, because in my mind, things need to be changed. This is how I think every day, and sometimes I cry, and sometimes I get so frustrated that I think about burning bridges (social bridges), and usually I just have to go to sleep so I can hopefully wake up having forgotten my frustration. Mankiller said that good leaders have positive attitudes. Whether that's true or not, it's probably good to have a positive attitude anyway. How will I ever overcome? I'm just not sure, but I hope I find a way soon. I suppose I will just have to work on it for the rest of my life.
For now, at least I have Andre3000.
Every boy and girl, woman to man, when you feel you've done about the best you can, motherfuck the wagon, come join the band. Vibrate higher. Sometimes when it's late at night and you have no one to talk to, here's what you do, you go through that raggedy cell phone bout two or three times, Tracy ain't home, Tina ain't home, the Love Below starts talking to you. The circumcision has already begun, desensitizing the very thing, or thang, that brought you into this motherfucker in the first place. And when I say mothrfucker, I do mean motherfucker, because Mother Earth is dying and we continue to fuck Her to death. Play with your own score sheet, become the master of your own bation. And yes, God is watching you. But no need to be embarrassed, for the future is in your hands, no, the future is in your hand. Play with your own score sheet.
For now, at least I have Andre3000.
Every boy and girl, woman to man, when you feel you've done about the best you can, motherfuck the wagon, come join the band. Vibrate higher. Sometimes when it's late at night and you have no one to talk to, here's what you do, you go through that raggedy cell phone bout two or three times, Tracy ain't home, Tina ain't home, the Love Below starts talking to you. The circumcision has already begun, desensitizing the very thing, or thang, that brought you into this motherfucker in the first place. And when I say mothrfucker, I do mean motherfucker, because Mother Earth is dying and we continue to fuck Her to death. Play with your own score sheet, become the master of your own bation. And yes, God is watching you. But no need to be embarrassed, for the future is in your hands, no, the future is in your hand. Play with your own score sheet.