CHANGE....scary....
It's been a while since I last wrote...Our third quarter for the third year started last week.
Actually, there is something I haven't said here yet...Actually, I changed. Nope, not just any normal change a person undergoes.
It all started on September of 2010...I fell on a deep sadness after I hurt someone dear to me. Guilt and regret haunted me. And then, things around me just started to lose control and heck I cannot pull things back together. I was in a total mess.
And then, I started the habit of extracting blood from my veins. At first, it's just for practice purposes, but then I found myself having the urge to do such every time I get depressed every now and then.
Well, I know for myself this isn't normal...And if I continue doing such, I might find myself in a bigger dilemma.
Last week in our orientation, I told everyone about this. As expected they stared surprised at me and seems like they freaked the heck out. Well, I've said something not to be shared with the crowd, you know?
And I have a reason I did that...I am ready to be hated or get feared, but I just hate to be the center of attention especially when the reason is this. And I think, soon, I will stop this habit just to avoid to be talked about.
I hope this could work...