second hand head phones
Usually I wouldn`t dare touch public headphones in a computer lab... either I`m desperate for music right now or it`s true that french peopple are cleaner than everyone else. Actually, there`s very little crime in Quebec city and it`s amazing, the only thing you have to watch out for is the drivers... at any given moment of the day you could die from crossing the street. And there`s a lot of grafiti on campus which makes some things look kind of ghetto but it`s not bad.. However I am realizing that the u of l campus is not as crappy as I thought it was.
I just need to babble right now so don`t mind me, this isn`t really an update, it`s a spewage of coffee and emo and the fact that my creative expression hasn`t had an outlet for about a month.. When you`re learning a language that you can`t express yourself in, it`s difficult to do much. But it`s been good, it`s been very worthwhile, I`ve been able to just take it all in: the tourism, the food, the people and the culture.. I`d like to think it`s added to me, being here, and I think it`s true because every experience in a person`s life adds to them, no matter what, but something like this, getting outside of your environment and hopefully outside of yourself... it`s priceless... at least that`s what I tell myself when I look at my depleted bank balence.
I`m realizing that it`s difficult not to be shallow. See, I always just assumed that I just am not shallow, that I just possible couldn`t be because other things and other people are shallow... and then a coulpe of months ago things transitioned radically and I asssumed I was ONLY shallow, nothing but, and I just would definitely not give myself any credit... Now I`m at the place where I can be shallow or not, no one is anything all of the time. Consistency is very fleeting, always. But at least it`s good to realize that, I think realization and recognition is a huge thing (of course I could be full of bullshit, I`m well aware of that, but at least I get to write what`s on my mind). It`s a beginning. It helps me stop thinking only of partying while I`m here, keeps me from just irrationally going a-wall during certain circumstances, keeps me from digressing.. I would hope. Everyone has potential, the potential to be the greatest person ever (anyone, trust me, everyone can) or to be a steaming pile of.. but yeah.. it`s choice and experience and learning.
Okay, well, it`s time to go shop and try to find something to wear for tonight (Soiree d'adieu - goodbye party) ... in the middle of a beautiful city full of possibility and I`m going to spend my afternoon in Le Château, yes!
stef
I just need to babble right now so don`t mind me, this isn`t really an update, it`s a spewage of coffee and emo and the fact that my creative expression hasn`t had an outlet for about a month.. When you`re learning a language that you can`t express yourself in, it`s difficult to do much. But it`s been good, it`s been very worthwhile, I`ve been able to just take it all in: the tourism, the food, the people and the culture.. I`d like to think it`s added to me, being here, and I think it`s true because every experience in a person`s life adds to them, no matter what, but something like this, getting outside of your environment and hopefully outside of yourself... it`s priceless... at least that`s what I tell myself when I look at my depleted bank balence.
I`m realizing that it`s difficult not to be shallow. See, I always just assumed that I just am not shallow, that I just possible couldn`t be because other things and other people are shallow... and then a coulpe of months ago things transitioned radically and I asssumed I was ONLY shallow, nothing but, and I just would definitely not give myself any credit... Now I`m at the place where I can be shallow or not, no one is anything all of the time. Consistency is very fleeting, always. But at least it`s good to realize that, I think realization and recognition is a huge thing (of course I could be full of bullshit, I`m well aware of that, but at least I get to write what`s on my mind). It`s a beginning. It helps me stop thinking only of partying while I`m here, keeps me from just irrationally going a-wall during certain circumstances, keeps me from digressing.. I would hope. Everyone has potential, the potential to be the greatest person ever (anyone, trust me, everyone can) or to be a steaming pile of.. but yeah.. it`s choice and experience and learning.
Okay, well, it`s time to go shop and try to find something to wear for tonight (Soiree d'adieu - goodbye party) ... in the middle of a beautiful city full of possibility and I`m going to spend my afternoon in Le Château, yes!
stef