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I'm really sick of treatment. I thought I would be able to stand all the bullshit and just pull off my lies in group, but I just keep getting all these stupid packets. My life was no unmanageable and I did have control over my drinking. I obviously do since I still drink and I went from drinking about five days a week to one. Does that really sound like a problem? All these assignments keep telling me that these are the certain things that are wrong with me and all this shit. I'm pretty damn sure that I know myself better than a fucking piece of paper and a fucking counselor who I lie to all the time. Seriously I can't handle another day of it and I still have a couple of months left. My life has become unmanageable since starting treatment. I can't go out and do anything after work on monday, tuesday or thursday because I will be too tired to get up at 8. I'm fucking sick of it, I want my life back. I do what I want when I want and that's how it's always been and that shit isn't going to change. I'm Stef, have fun trying to tell me what to do.