a lot of lost thoughts
i quiet my job.
it felt so good. i was never more relieved than when i handed over my equipment and washed my hands clean of that place. i even whashed myself good of chavez when i left.
couple of days later i needed to sign paperwork with personal. while there they start to ask me things about my sgt and team leader. i answered them all and then learned why I was the one being asked. the things that had put in my personal file bassically stated i was un-ethical and just a bunch of lies. so i told personal everything. everything about my team leader trying to tase me. the sgt being sexually agressive towards me. i told them how i spoke with kings county. i mean i told them everything!
started school about two weeks after that. siocology, nutrition, anatomy, and phsycology. finish up my pre-requisites to get into the RN program.
no job but im going to school......
two new jobs in one year, both i quit.....
still live in a two bedroom APT. with three people....
i have these thoughts, the oens that were all positive not that long ago. i was going along with have a "good" job and i was moving into a larger HOUSE.
school seems like its to much for me but i KNOW that its not. i don't work i have plenty of time to do all the assignments. i have time to clean clean clean. i have time to speand day(s) with my family. don't get me wrong i enjoy it.
but i just don't feel like i am getting done what needs to be done.
so all in all i came to this conclusion while talking with dear ol'e granny
i have failed at EVERY god damn thing that i have attempted this past year.
couldn't take the pressure of being a manager at a photography studio so i ran, tucked my tail and ran. then i move out to being dispatch for SRR. woooohooo i know but seriously. so two jobs one year, shows lack of commitment and when the going gets tough i get ta going. which makes me wonder where else in my life i have been applying this.
i dont' have the time or energy to type all the things that have just failed this past year but its been a lot more than just two.
fail fail fail......newyear.....pass.......pass???????
it felt so good. i was never more relieved than when i handed over my equipment and washed my hands clean of that place. i even whashed myself good of chavez when i left.
couple of days later i needed to sign paperwork with personal. while there they start to ask me things about my sgt and team leader. i answered them all and then learned why I was the one being asked. the things that had put in my personal file bassically stated i was un-ethical and just a bunch of lies. so i told personal everything. everything about my team leader trying to tase me. the sgt being sexually agressive towards me. i told them how i spoke with kings county. i mean i told them everything!
started school about two weeks after that. siocology, nutrition, anatomy, and phsycology. finish up my pre-requisites to get into the RN program.
no job but im going to school......
two new jobs in one year, both i quit.....
still live in a two bedroom APT. with three people....
i have these thoughts, the oens that were all positive not that long ago. i was going along with have a "good" job and i was moving into a larger HOUSE.
school seems like its to much for me but i KNOW that its not. i don't work i have plenty of time to do all the assignments. i have time to clean clean clean. i have time to speand day(s) with my family. don't get me wrong i enjoy it.
but i just don't feel like i am getting done what needs to be done.
so all in all i came to this conclusion while talking with dear ol'e granny
i have failed at EVERY god damn thing that i have attempted this past year.
couldn't take the pressure of being a manager at a photography studio so i ran, tucked my tail and ran. then i move out to being dispatch for SRR. woooohooo i know but seriously. so two jobs one year, shows lack of commitment and when the going gets tough i get ta going. which makes me wonder where else in my life i have been applying this.
i dont' have the time or energy to type all the things that have just failed this past year but its been a lot more than just two.
fail fail fail......newyear.....pass.......pass???????