Insomnia
I can't sleep at all. I keep staring at the ceiling, mind too active to take a break. Someone asked if maybe something was bothering me and when I think about it, yes there is.
It bothers me that people say we should be transparent and have nothing to hide. Yet when others do reveal that side, they immediately condemn them and say the least flattering of things about them. It makes me wonder, why bother revealing anything at all? No one seriously cares about the troubles you face and the things that keep you awake so you might as well shove them in a corner and not talk about it. It troubles and hurts me that people can be so judgemental and blind. Judging what they cannot understand and labelling people who are merely having problems in life.
Somehow I can't help but wonder what do people think of me instead?
Is it any wonder sometimes I feel like I'm wearing a mask that I can't take off?
I'm confused. Why bother being true to yourself when no one really cares at all? When other people would prefer to see the puppet instead of the person?
Maybe I should close Illusions down.... its defeating its own purpose after all...
It bothers me that people say we should be transparent and have nothing to hide. Yet when others do reveal that side, they immediately condemn them and say the least flattering of things about them. It makes me wonder, why bother revealing anything at all? No one seriously cares about the troubles you face and the things that keep you awake so you might as well shove them in a corner and not talk about it. It troubles and hurts me that people can be so judgemental and blind. Judging what they cannot understand and labelling people who are merely having problems in life.
Somehow I can't help but wonder what do people think of me instead?
Is it any wonder sometimes I feel like I'm wearing a mask that I can't take off?
I'm confused. Why bother being true to yourself when no one really cares at all? When other people would prefer to see the puppet instead of the person?
Maybe I should close Illusions down.... its defeating its own purpose after all...