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You know what's depressing? When people don't understand you and they critisize you from their limited point of view. You know what's even more depressing? They do that right after agreeing earlier on that we shouldn't talk about people when we don't understand the whole story.
That's depressing.
I can't stop pissing off people and I'm tired of apologizing towards others for things I do that sometimes I can't control. I wish people would for one moment stop and take a look from my perspective. I know I'm not an easy person to be with, I know I can get real bitchy at times but did you ever to stop and ask yourself if maybe you are the reason I'm bitching?
Anyway, I called my mom up and we're going to see a doctor when I get home. She believes my condition is medical and not exactly mental. At this point, I'm hoping against hope that the doc will find SOMETHING wrong with me that can be fixed or at least explained. I want to blame my severe mood swings and depression on something. I don't want to keep thinking that its just me. That I'm really this bitchy and will go through life feeling like shit and giving everyone hell.
And yes, some things don't go into the blog because people are too judgemental. Those who still read this (it either means you're on my LJ friends list or you care), I have one request. If I turn class-A bitch on you, forgive me. Theres something wrong with me and I'm still trying to figure out why.
Sometimes I hate being me.
That's depressing.
I can't stop pissing off people and I'm tired of apologizing towards others for things I do that sometimes I can't control. I wish people would for one moment stop and take a look from my perspective. I know I'm not an easy person to be with, I know I can get real bitchy at times but did you ever to stop and ask yourself if maybe you are the reason I'm bitching?
Anyway, I called my mom up and we're going to see a doctor when I get home. She believes my condition is medical and not exactly mental. At this point, I'm hoping against hope that the doc will find SOMETHING wrong with me that can be fixed or at least explained. I want to blame my severe mood swings and depression on something. I don't want to keep thinking that its just me. That I'm really this bitchy and will go through life feeling like shit and giving everyone hell.
And yes, some things don't go into the blog because people are too judgemental. Those who still read this (it either means you're on my LJ friends list or you care), I have one request. If I turn class-A bitch on you, forgive me. Theres something wrong with me and I'm still trying to figure out why.
Sometimes I hate being me.