It's worse to fall in love by yourself

[stealthsniper]

I suppose saying anything about the Army here is taboo.  No threats have been made, and I haven't been black-bagged.  All I should say is, I'm ready to get out.  Still a little under three years left.  Which means it's been a little over five years.  Looking back, things are about the same.  Frustrated, unproductive, and constant obstacles.  No

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[stealthsniper]

It definitely does. I usually talk myself out of meeting new people. Bringing up negative things about people. Over-analyzing. High school reactions. As for dates, I've only been on a handful and all of them initiated. It's hard to go after desires when your brain tells you otherwise.

Talk to me, Angie. Tell me how you're doing.

[stealthsniper]

Oh my, I read this a couple days ago and I thought I replied. Damn memory.
I have a handful of dreams in which I'm dying that I remember. One was locked in a fridge and suffocating while the fridge sank to the bottom. Another I was driving on a slick offramp and drove into a ledge that cut my car in half horizontally. My thoughts aren't really morbid, and if they ever take that turn, I use it more of a motivator than anything else. Like I wouldn't want to die until I had the chance to _______. I'm happy when people share my enthusiasm for something, or when I hear good stories about people's lives. I'm happy when the weekend comes. That last one was kind of an alcohol reason. I'm also happy when I have something to look forward to. When all I've seen is a lot of nothing on the horizon, it's nice to find something positive stop by and say hello.

Wanna make this big baby happy?