My greed.... my surprise
To start...
I cant breathe again
and this time for the right reasons
this time were going to get it right
it will be fun
it will be happy
we will take it slow
It's always those unexpecteds that feel the best...
he has surprised me more than I ever thought possible.
I had my mind made up about him before I even met him, and tried to adhere to it even as time unveiled that i was so horribly wrong.
and i gave it up, i gave in to him and have since enjoyed every moment that we share.
working with him, playing with him, talking with him, even fighting with him has this certain sweetness attached to it.
And it seems too easy.
I dont even want to move forward in fear of messing anything up.
Instead I stay in limbo, between wanting more and this sweet simplicity that we exist in now.
and falling asleep with him, tucked in his arms feels so perfect. There was no adjustment time, no getting used to how he slept, his snoring, how he twitches his leg in his deepest dreams.... no, it was all perfect.
and when I sleep alone now it feels empty
he texted me this morning I wish you were here and I wished the same thing
my dreams are filled with moments spent with him
and i looked riven and crimson in the face the other night and told them, I was going to wait. They said he's been hurt too much and they dont think he could put himself out there again, and I said I understood and I meant it.
because I truly know exactly where he is at, i understand more than I could ever explain to them. And I need this time too.
but more than that I think i need him
I told them all I could do is wait and show him that I am different from the others, and wait for him to show me the same
and in the meantime I will cherish every moment I get to spend with this sweet sweet friend.... my greed
I cant breathe again
and this time for the right reasons
this time were going to get it right
it will be fun
it will be happy
we will take it slow
It's always those unexpecteds that feel the best...
he has surprised me more than I ever thought possible.
I had my mind made up about him before I even met him, and tried to adhere to it even as time unveiled that i was so horribly wrong.
and i gave it up, i gave in to him and have since enjoyed every moment that we share.
working with him, playing with him, talking with him, even fighting with him has this certain sweetness attached to it.
And it seems too easy.
I dont even want to move forward in fear of messing anything up.
Instead I stay in limbo, between wanting more and this sweet simplicity that we exist in now.
and falling asleep with him, tucked in his arms feels so perfect. There was no adjustment time, no getting used to how he slept, his snoring, how he twitches his leg in his deepest dreams.... no, it was all perfect.
and when I sleep alone now it feels empty
he texted me this morning I wish you were here and I wished the same thing
my dreams are filled with moments spent with him
and i looked riven and crimson in the face the other night and told them, I was going to wait. They said he's been hurt too much and they dont think he could put himself out there again, and I said I understood and I meant it.
because I truly know exactly where he is at, i understand more than I could ever explain to them. And I need this time too.
but more than that I think i need him
I told them all I could do is wait and show him that I am different from the others, and wait for him to show me the same
and in the meantime I will cherish every moment I get to spend with this sweet sweet friend.... my greed