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whoop whoop celebrations, got my first taste of sweet university money and my bank account is looking more like a human's and less like a student's, which is just the greatest novelty ever.
im sleeping way too much (not really, but way too far into the day) which is giving me enormous levels of pent up energy that i'm too unmotivated to burn. i have these huge cravings to go mountain biking and swimming in dams, but all i've achieved is a few book shop runs and purchase of two pairs of stockings.
i'm refusing to go and see movies with people because i really don't feel like sitting in a dark room filling my head with stories right now.
feeling mildly inspired to do a number of things, get some adventures going and such, but feeling heaps down about soph not being up for sharing anything with me at the moment. she has suddenyl become heaps withdrawn, and louis is visiting from melbourne so she's hanging out with him. what the fuck, i said? i dont live in melbourn, and he does, and you've suddenly decided you want to front up to everyone as my best friend, reassure me through long personal letters that we are still as close as ever, and then can't even be bothered to return a call until you decide to drive to sydney with your boyfriend? i just don't understand.
there are a few people that i'm keen to catch up with, and then a number of other people who are starting to actually make plans with me to catch up. the ones i want to see just seem to be too aloof to be available, and too precious to make an effort. i guess i should just be saying, fuck that, who needs em, but i want to make contact.
going out for dinner tonight with some people and going to get a bottle of wine which i will make sure i get the majority of. people, and not just people from newcastle, these days, for me, mostly need liquor lubrication to become at all interesting or engaging. and yes, i'm probably exagerrating, and i'm utterly overbearing and judgemental and arrogant, but everybody is at some point. these traits are just magnified when i'm bored.
the phone just rang. "hi, mumble mumble the oven." it was a bit funny.
i dont know. it's interesting to be moving about and feeling strange and seeing people who were left behind (purposefully, accidentally, incidentally), and increasingly wanting to get to another location. my sentences aren't really conveying what i'm trying to say, but i guess i can only keep trying.
enough for now though.
im sleeping way too much (not really, but way too far into the day) which is giving me enormous levels of pent up energy that i'm too unmotivated to burn. i have these huge cravings to go mountain biking and swimming in dams, but all i've achieved is a few book shop runs and purchase of two pairs of stockings.
i'm refusing to go and see movies with people because i really don't feel like sitting in a dark room filling my head with stories right now.
feeling mildly inspired to do a number of things, get some adventures going and such, but feeling heaps down about soph not being up for sharing anything with me at the moment. she has suddenyl become heaps withdrawn, and louis is visiting from melbourne so she's hanging out with him. what the fuck, i said? i dont live in melbourn, and he does, and you've suddenly decided you want to front up to everyone as my best friend, reassure me through long personal letters that we are still as close as ever, and then can't even be bothered to return a call until you decide to drive to sydney with your boyfriend? i just don't understand.
there are a few people that i'm keen to catch up with, and then a number of other people who are starting to actually make plans with me to catch up. the ones i want to see just seem to be too aloof to be available, and too precious to make an effort. i guess i should just be saying, fuck that, who needs em, but i want to make contact.
going out for dinner tonight with some people and going to get a bottle of wine which i will make sure i get the majority of. people, and not just people from newcastle, these days, for me, mostly need liquor lubrication to become at all interesting or engaging. and yes, i'm probably exagerrating, and i'm utterly overbearing and judgemental and arrogant, but everybody is at some point. these traits are just magnified when i'm bored.
the phone just rang. "hi, mumble mumble the oven." it was a bit funny.
i dont know. it's interesting to be moving about and feeling strange and seeing people who were left behind (purposefully, accidentally, incidentally), and increasingly wanting to get to another location. my sentences aren't really conveying what i'm trying to say, but i guess i can only keep trying.
enough for now though.