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i missed the bus yesterday so then my mom got mad and started acting like a total physco. lol
and since i couldnt "eat breakfast" at school, i had to eat at home.
so while she was in the bathroom, i took out the toaster to make it look like i ate.
when she came out, she asked me if if i ate so i obviously said yes.
but she didnt believe me so she actually felt the toaster to see if it it was hot (and it wasnt because i never turned it on!)
no matter how much she yelled at me, i never admited i didnt eat.
then she started screaming like a fucking mental woman!
then she made me eat a rice cake and had my sister watch me.
i was really upset about breaking my fast!!!!!!
my sister missed her bus too lol
but in the car, my mom said that she was going to tell my guidance counselor to have someone watch me about my eating during lunch time.
so i told a few of my bffs about my mom. they think the only reason why i dont eat at school is because i dont like wat the school serves for lunch. hahahaha
but i ate a pb&j sandwich for lunch just in case i was being watched
and then when i got home from school, i didnt raid the refrigerator like i usually do =)
but then i started binging after dinner
ughh. i was so stupid
lol
i promised myself i would do better today.
heres what i had so far:
skim milk
indian food (fish with something)
1 slice of bread with butter
1 slice of bread with mozzerella cheese
sugar free jello
now that i look at it, i know that there is so much more room for improvement
i could have not eaten the bread
im learning to not blow up on myself and learn from my mistakes
yay me =)
and at least i binge on the bread like i usually do.
and my stomach has been staying flat and i hope to keep it that way
im going to clean a little and get some excersize
i love how much im improving lol
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and since i couldnt "eat breakfast" at school, i had to eat at home.
so while she was in the bathroom, i took out the toaster to make it look like i ate.
when she came out, she asked me if if i ate so i obviously said yes.
but she didnt believe me so she actually felt the toaster to see if it it was hot (and it wasnt because i never turned it on!)
no matter how much she yelled at me, i never admited i didnt eat.
then she started screaming like a fucking mental woman!
then she made me eat a rice cake and had my sister watch me.
i was really upset about breaking my fast!!!!!!
my sister missed her bus too lol
but in the car, my mom said that she was going to tell my guidance counselor to have someone watch me about my eating during lunch time.
so i told a few of my bffs about my mom. they think the only reason why i dont eat at school is because i dont like wat the school serves for lunch. hahahaha
but i ate a pb&j sandwich for lunch just in case i was being watched
and then when i got home from school, i didnt raid the refrigerator like i usually do =)
but then i started binging after dinner
ughh. i was so stupid
lol
i promised myself i would do better today.
heres what i had so far:
skim milk
indian food (fish with something)
1 slice of bread with butter
1 slice of bread with mozzerella cheese
sugar free jello
now that i look at it, i know that there is so much more room for improvement
i could have not eaten the bread
im learning to not blow up on myself and learn from my mistakes
yay me =)
and at least i binge on the bread like i usually do.
and my stomach has been staying flat and i hope to keep it that way
im going to clean a little and get some excersize
i love how much im improving lol
<33