my heart
he left tonight. he said he has trouble with goodbyes. he said he'll keep in touch, always. he kissed me on the cheek and left me. he left all of us. but i think mostly, he left me. it's so hard to say goodbye to a friend, but he was more than that, so much more. i love him dearly, and i always will, and no matter what happens or where i go in life, i will never ever forget him. he brought out the best and the worst in me. he showed me everything and nothing. he is truly the most unique person i have ever known. when i'm near him or i'm just thinking about him, my breathing and my heartbeat speed up and slow down all at the same time. i've felt a lot of things for a lot of people, but never this, this is new. this hurts. this feels wonderful. this makes me sad and happy and confused and content and just everything. i'll never know this feeling again, which is why i treasure it so much, why i treasure him so much. i can't begin to thank him for all he's done for me just by being in my life, just by being. i have so many amazing memories with him. good ones and bad ones. even the bad ones bring a smile to my face. i know he isn't far, and he knows i'm not far. i cherish the time we had and so look forward to the times we have yet to know together.
i love him
i love him