so empty, so lonely, so lost
gahhh two more days of not hearing from Jon. I swear I'm not that crazy about him/psycho…what is wrong with me? I've been going crazy all week, come on, acting so fuckin desperate. Is it really so bad to long intimacy/touch/adornment/affection? Is he the right person to seek it from though…I barely remember how it was with him considering that was almost two months ago. But I SO enjoy talking to him and I feel like we have a lot of the same values/morals. Why do I suck so bad at having any type of relationship, not even one yet it's just brewing and I'm probably fucking it up.
See you got me all alone waiting right here by the phone
For you to call me, just to hear your voice tone.
I keep on wondering if you was even feeling me,
I keep on wondering if this was even meant to be
Tell me imma waste of time, boy you showing me no sign,
Is it cuz you on ya grind, cuz you're always on my mind
I ain't felt this in a while,
But I came to a conclusion that this is pure illusion
Chaos and confusion but I'm not gonna let it ruin
The way I feel about myself cuz I got self-esteem, sometimes I
Wonder if I'm just chasing a fantasy
See you got me all alone waiting right here by the phone
For you to call me, just to hear your voice tone.
I keep on wondering if you was even feeling me,
I keep on wondering if this was even meant to be
Tell me imma waste of time, boy you showing me no sign,
Is it cuz you on ya grind, cuz you're always on my mind
I ain't felt this in a while,
But I came to a conclusion that this is pure illusion
Chaos and confusion but I'm not gonna let it ruin
The way I feel about myself cuz I got self-esteem, sometimes I
Wonder if I'm just chasing a fantasy