The Words "Best Friend" Become Redefined (x10Y)
29 June 2023
RINSE & REPEAT.
24 October 2011 @ 03:49 pm
Resentment...
30 October 2011 @ 11:09 pm
(Unfinished...)
Faceless, find me now
Beneath all imposed adornment
May the past find out
Shaping self-deception into...
Misguided intent
Underlying discontentment
pushing to invent
Underlining my resentment...
Faithless, phase you out
Breaking free from apparitions
seeing through you now
Scraping past the surface into...
Something I will never be
Burdens you bestow upon me
Give into and take from me
Let it go, just let me be...
01 November 2011 @ 01:24 pm
The Great Escape
To be used as yet another decoy inside some deceptive dream, is to falter to every previous hand that's ever touched me. Who is she to bestow that upon me... upon you? I sought shelter, where you brought me rain. You set me up by your own admission, by your own division; a miscalculation that scars deeply in the realization of a true separation. You should know this, should know how I feel; your falter was once my pain turned yours and where am I now? Retracing, replacing... screaming from the inside, but as if I'm crying wolf... are we really that far gone that my screams are mere echoes to you anymore?
You took her side; everyone's side but mine. Your shelter, you provided to she, who you miscalculated my intentions for while leaving me to the depths of this daunting familiarity. Undeniable dilemmas formed lies to save face beneath these waves of impropriety, yet as I tried to wade offshore to avoid the storm, you had the audacity to create erroneous intentions on my behalf as if I'm the one behind the mask; I played the victim and the culprit simultaneously as if to unveil the true parameters of my precarious being...
06 November 2011 @ 06:15 pm
Faulty Closure
Two-sided times...
To branch out behind the pain of this betrayal would be to accept the blame that's been subtly, yet intricately woven throughout my entire existence. I'd rather continue running and trying to reshape rather than to stay and stand for what I've been shaped into here; a side that no one stands for, a mere exclusion anymore.
Should I ever look back this time,
this I'll never forget...
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