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Well the only way to get back in the habit of these things is to not make a big deal out of it and just start writing again... Thus, here I am.
And what have I to report? Not much. I've been very down as of late. Actually really down. Not that anyone has noticed, because I close myself off from everyone.
Mostly over the past few weeks, I've really hated my persona. I constantly feel like people just barely tolerate my existance. To make matters worse, I've been flat out ignoring people who are important to me so that I don't have to remind myself how awkward I feel. ::sigh:: I can't even explain it real well, which is more of the problem.
I just don't know whats going on.
I know I'm pushing away friends.
I know I'm wasting time.
I know I'm hardly living.
And I know I don't like it.
And what have I to report? Not much. I've been very down as of late. Actually really down. Not that anyone has noticed, because I close myself off from everyone.
Mostly over the past few weeks, I've really hated my persona. I constantly feel like people just barely tolerate my existance. To make matters worse, I've been flat out ignoring people who are important to me so that I don't have to remind myself how awkward I feel. ::sigh:: I can't even explain it real well, which is more of the problem.
I just don't know whats going on.
I know I'm pushing away friends.
I know I'm wasting time.
I know I'm hardly living.
And I know I don't like it.