closer to where i started
i am at content with myself so much so the intensity of feeling happy and at peace is somewhat disconcerting. its as though im biting off more happiness than i deserve. such happiness cannot be to stay, its transient, and it just makes me uneasy, as though something's gonna be taken away just because i've been given this much.
i want to stick to the plans i craft out for myself in my head but too often do i stray from discipline. i wish i had more perseverance and self restraint. shall start practicing it from today onwards and thats a promise.
don’t know why we all hang onto something we know we’re better off letting go. It’s like we’re scared to lose what we don’t really have. Some of us say we’d rather have that something than nothing, but the truth is to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all